CLEARER VIEWS, DIMMER VIEWS
Slowly, I get a better grasp of what's going on. But at the same time, I feel like in some ways things seem darker. Things seem to be more... muddled. I do hope things become easier to comprehend soon.
I feel lost. I feel like I'm on pause.
I feel like I'm told one thing, but expected to be something else.
And that I have to find some way to marry the two opposites into one single thing.
I probably shouldn't be typing all this here. Shouldn't be speaking out what's in my heart. And my head. But then again, I don't like pretending everything is okay. And I do believe things that want to work will work if given the chance. Or the effort. Or the time.
Please Lord, don't let me be wrong.