Friday nears its end
And yes, by tomorrow the World of Darkness is officially over. Soon to rise from the ashes is the fan named WOD 2.0 which is a complete revamp of the concepts and systems of Vampire, mage and werewolf. Again, I feel a tad sad for the loss of the game line. Although I fully support their decision, being an adherent believer that all good things come to an end, I still feel somewhat saddenned that many other gamers might never be able to have a chance to try the game line out the way it was before.
A fact of life, I know.
And yes, I am aware that WOD 2.0 may be even more engaging, and ground-breaking than the first one.
Still, I mourn for the loss of a great game setting...
and anxiously await the birth of a new beginning.
Friday, April 30, 2004
Thursday, April 29, 2004
The countdown to the weekend continues...
And I have to admit, I am terribly excited for Saturday to come. Work has been nothing but a tedious constant flood of deadlines, diatribes and unnecessary requirements that have to be met. Frankly, nothing really irkes me so much at work as a person who supposedly calls the shots suddenly making commitments to others on things she herself doesn't really work on. I mean, its bad enough I am slaving my ass and soul nearly 24 hours a day at least once a week now, but does some cruel tart really have to tell the client that the project will be done on dates I myself have not even considered as a deadline? Putcha, why don't YOU do it yourself to hit that deadline, you cow.
Hay...
On the lighter side, heard from Saint Eroica today. Although officially, I heard from her when she posted in my blog a few days ago, today was the day I got to text with her a bit. Its nice to be in touch with an old friend again.
Then, there's the fact that as of today, I am already clocking in 44 hours. I wonder if my boss will actually let me go home tomorrow at lunchtime (since we're only required to clock in 45 hours a week.) Frankly, I have my doubts, but I guess it wouldn't hurt to try eh?
And I have to admit, I am terribly excited for Saturday to come. Work has been nothing but a tedious constant flood of deadlines, diatribes and unnecessary requirements that have to be met. Frankly, nothing really irkes me so much at work as a person who supposedly calls the shots suddenly making commitments to others on things she herself doesn't really work on. I mean, its bad enough I am slaving my ass and soul nearly 24 hours a day at least once a week now, but does some cruel tart really have to tell the client that the project will be done on dates I myself have not even considered as a deadline? Putcha, why don't YOU do it yourself to hit that deadline, you cow.
Hay...
On the lighter side, heard from Saint Eroica today. Although officially, I heard from her when she posted in my blog a few days ago, today was the day I got to text with her a bit. Its nice to be in touch with an old friend again.
Then, there's the fact that as of today, I am already clocking in 44 hours. I wonder if my boss will actually let me go home tomorrow at lunchtime (since we're only required to clock in 45 hours a week.) Frankly, I have my doubts, but I guess it wouldn't hurt to try eh?
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
Spent the better half of yesterday...
... deeply asleep in my soft lonely bed. The terribly gaze of Sol burned through the ceiling and forced me to weep sweat from every pore. Still, it was not enough to wake me. Had only one meal yesterday... a futile attempt I guess to make up for the 1 pint, three sundae cups, four soft ice cream cones, 1 jelly tongue and 1 pinipig ice cream that I devoured on a whim. Forgot to vaccuum the upper level like I promised my roommate, Seth. And spent the later part of the afternoon online, perusing websites with keywords like Adhene and Cantrips.
In the evening, laughted my ass off watching Love, Actually followed by a near tearful moment which was effectively squashed by the visit of John Boy Tacujan with his birthday present for little ole me. He got me a hardbound collection of Clive Barker stories!!! Been a while since I had my barker-fix, so this really was a pleasant surprise.
After a laugh-filled hour of checking out a cute game I found called Magic Pengel: The Quest for Color, and a repeated influx of denials of any semblance, affiliation or relation to gayness, John boy then headed home.
Today....
Woke early to handle Color Grading for the shoot. Got to see Augs Cabazor and got back some money I loaned him... good timing too. I needed the cash hit. And now, its back to the usual work load. Here's hoping I live through the week...
I really need my salary soon.
... deeply asleep in my soft lonely bed. The terribly gaze of Sol burned through the ceiling and forced me to weep sweat from every pore. Still, it was not enough to wake me. Had only one meal yesterday... a futile attempt I guess to make up for the 1 pint, three sundae cups, four soft ice cream cones, 1 jelly tongue and 1 pinipig ice cream that I devoured on a whim. Forgot to vaccuum the upper level like I promised my roommate, Seth. And spent the later part of the afternoon online, perusing websites with keywords like Adhene and Cantrips.
In the evening, laughted my ass off watching Love, Actually followed by a near tearful moment which was effectively squashed by the visit of John Boy Tacujan with his birthday present for little ole me. He got me a hardbound collection of Clive Barker stories!!! Been a while since I had my barker-fix, so this really was a pleasant surprise.
After a laugh-filled hour of checking out a cute game I found called Magic Pengel: The Quest for Color, and a repeated influx of denials of any semblance, affiliation or relation to gayness, John boy then headed home.
Today....
Woke early to handle Color Grading for the shoot. Got to see Augs Cabazor and got back some money I loaned him... good timing too. I needed the cash hit. And now, its back to the usual work load. Here's hoping I live through the week...
I really need my salary soon.
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
Figure this out
Today is officially the start of Tuesday.
It is 5:51a.m. and I am just about to finish the last few things I have to do before I can finally head home.
And yet, officially, if I were to compute my current amount of hours at work to 5:51a.m. the resulting total of working hours I have rendered is...
29 hours.
Can you figure out how that happened?
Only in ABS-CBN Global Limited.
Today is officially the start of Tuesday.
It is 5:51a.m. and I am just about to finish the last few things I have to do before I can finally head home.
And yet, officially, if I were to compute my current amount of hours at work to 5:51a.m. the resulting total of working hours I have rendered is...
29 hours.
Can you figure out how that happened?
Only in ABS-CBN Global Limited.
Yeah, it is happening again
It is currently 12:47 in the morning and we have just finished shooting one of two storyboards for a telecom commercial. Gah, looks like my stuck at work even as the sun begins to shine days aren't quite over yet. I'm terribly tired from the fact I had to go to work yesterday (on my birthday) after only having barely three hours of sleep, then heading home around midnight to wake and head back to work even before the sun completely rose.
And now, within the same day, I am doing it again.
I tell you, this is freaking exhausting.
I'm gonna stay home tomorrow, yes I will.
And I'm going to get my well deserved rest.
Not all things are bad
Got free ice cream today. An officemate of ours was kind enough to notice my falling-asleep-between-takes moments and decided to cheer me up with a dose of soft ice cream covered in delicious strawberry syrup (the really yummy kind that solidifies from the cold). I feel like a happy camper who just got a prize from my parents for doing well.
Yay me!
Pages.... the pages..
The days count down to the deadline for the first presentation of the stuff I have made for Siglo so far. I'm a nervous wreck whenever I recall that. I don't want to disappoint my writer, Quark Henares or the people behind Siglo (namely, Sodomy Victim Vinnie and Erudite Author Dean. God, grant me the talent, the skill, the determination and the courage to finish this task.
Or at least come up with something they'll be willing to still print.
Lastly... been having thoughts...
I really am starting to consider new job options. I love my job and all, but I think I am starting to search for a change of pace. Anyone with openings in mind for me to peruse? Hope to hear from you.
It is currently 12:47 in the morning and we have just finished shooting one of two storyboards for a telecom commercial. Gah, looks like my stuck at work even as the sun begins to shine days aren't quite over yet. I'm terribly tired from the fact I had to go to work yesterday (on my birthday) after only having barely three hours of sleep, then heading home around midnight to wake and head back to work even before the sun completely rose.
And now, within the same day, I am doing it again.
I tell you, this is freaking exhausting.
I'm gonna stay home tomorrow, yes I will.
And I'm going to get my well deserved rest.
Not all things are bad
Got free ice cream today. An officemate of ours was kind enough to notice my falling-asleep-between-takes moments and decided to cheer me up with a dose of soft ice cream covered in delicious strawberry syrup (the really yummy kind that solidifies from the cold). I feel like a happy camper who just got a prize from my parents for doing well.
Yay me!
Pages.... the pages..
The days count down to the deadline for the first presentation of the stuff I have made for Siglo so far. I'm a nervous wreck whenever I recall that. I don't want to disappoint my writer, Quark Henares or the people behind Siglo (namely, Sodomy Victim Vinnie and Erudite Author Dean. God, grant me the talent, the skill, the determination and the courage to finish this task.
Or at least come up with something they'll be willing to still print.
Lastly... been having thoughts...
I really am starting to consider new job options. I love my job and all, but I think I am starting to search for a change of pace. Anyone with openings in mind for me to peruse? Hope to hear from you.
Monday, April 26, 2004
Agh, early work!
Handling a shoot.
Just wanted to post two things I noticed this morning.
First the bad:
taken from http://www.enterthedream.net/webcomicbookclub/full.php?cid=59
Very painful reviews of Nearly Forgotten in this site.
I guess they didn't get it. Funny though one mentioned an Art Teacher considering my work for them to check out. :-)
Here's a painful excerpt:
Overall: "Uh, this isn't a comic. Not to me anyways. I'm sure to someone else it might. But to me, this is a piece of Art. Art is meant to be experienced. I know that because that's what my Abstract art teacher seemed to believe, or something like that. Needless to say, this isn't really a comic. Comics should be... drawn. I don't care if it was badly drawn with a pencil and on lined paper, as long as it was drawn... I'd have no problem with the comic being what it is. This doesn't seem like a comic to me."
Then the good:
taken from http://www.livejournal.com/~jawbreakerzine/
Dumpling Press distro has been newly reopened.
We're all ready to get your mail orders,
but we're also making our goodies available from Central Comic Headquarters (CCHQ) in Katipunan, QC, and Eskinita in Taytay, Rizal.
-----------------------------------------
First on the list is San'To? #1, the debut zine by Acid Ink Studios, lovingly edited by Bunny Luz.
It offers a cornucopia of ubran perspectives: a reluctant local cinema-goer, an unrepentant 'theater brat', a teenage diabetic, an insightful commuter, and more. There's a nice little interview with superstar inker/ mini-comic advocate Gerry Alanguilan (Crest Hut Butt Shop). Plus a generous smattering of fiction, reviews, and comics [including rare non-horror work by Tobie Abad (Diliman)].
30 pages, half A4-size, with a cardstock cover.
Click on the image to see a more detailed view.
Each issue contains a free sticker.
For only P30 (in the stores)/P40 (by mail order), it's totally sulit.
A very promising debut from this young zinester!
- I must admit I am touched to be part of this.
And surprised non-horror work from me is considered rare now!
:-)
Handling a shoot.
Just wanted to post two things I noticed this morning.
First the bad:
taken from http://www.enterthedream.net/webcomicbookclub/full.php?cid=59
Very painful reviews of Nearly Forgotten in this site.
I guess they didn't get it. Funny though one mentioned an Art Teacher considering my work for them to check out. :-)
Here's a painful excerpt:
Overall: "Uh, this isn't a comic. Not to me anyways. I'm sure to someone else it might. But to me, this is a piece of Art. Art is meant to be experienced. I know that because that's what my Abstract art teacher seemed to believe, or something like that. Needless to say, this isn't really a comic. Comics should be... drawn. I don't care if it was badly drawn with a pencil and on lined paper, as long as it was drawn... I'd have no problem with the comic being what it is. This doesn't seem like a comic to me."
Then the good:
taken from http://www.livejournal.com/~jawbreakerzine/
Dumpling Press distro has been newly reopened.
We're all ready to get your mail orders,
but we're also making our goodies available from Central Comic Headquarters (CCHQ) in Katipunan, QC, and Eskinita in Taytay, Rizal.
-----------------------------------------
First on the list is San'To? #1, the debut zine by Acid Ink Studios, lovingly edited by Bunny Luz.
It offers a cornucopia of ubran perspectives: a reluctant local cinema-goer, an unrepentant 'theater brat', a teenage diabetic, an insightful commuter, and more. There's a nice little interview with superstar inker/ mini-comic advocate Gerry Alanguilan (Crest Hut Butt Shop). Plus a generous smattering of fiction, reviews, and comics [including rare non-horror work by Tobie Abad (Diliman)].
30 pages, half A4-size, with a cardstock cover.
Click on the image to see a more detailed view.
Each issue contains a free sticker.
For only P30 (in the stores)/P40 (by mail order), it's totally sulit.
A very promising debut from this young zinester!
- I must admit I am touched to be part of this.
And surprised non-horror work from me is considered rare now!
:-)
Sunday, April 25, 2004
Yay me, I'm older
Today, my 27th birthday has come to pass.
With barely ten visitors at my house (Seth, Sam, Aldwin, Carl, Oliver, Benedict and James) to join me in my celebrations, I looked back at how the years have been to me and realise that kindness has grown more and more selfish each passing year. Too often, I have played the part of the martyr, the fool, the kind shoulder, the ever-willing soul, the passionate lover, the jilted paramor, the lonely watcher, the angry artist, the rejected writer, the middle child, the exhausted source of strength, the ignored font of ideas, and so many other roles. The numerous masks and faces I was tasked to wear, and in many cases required even to perform have exhausted every single possible year I had to the brink of self-immolation.
And yet, I live on.
Even when a paranoid repeat of the past threatens to tear away my stability, I live on.
Even when insensitivity and self-centeredness shove me to the fringes of shadows, I live on.
Even when personal goals, parasitic egos and jellyfish spines force me to support those I hate, I live on.
I live on regardless of the way old friends treat me like shit. I live on regardless of how mentors suddenly betray you to their own new cliques. I live on regardless of rumor, of spite, of ignorance, of indifference.
I shall live on and I shall continue to live on.
I once did live alone, after all.
You're all part of my life because I choose to let you be.
And I am a part of your life only when you allow me to be.
Happy 27th Birthday to me!
I'm already excited to see what crap builds up to make the next one just as memorable.
Today, my 27th birthday has come to pass.
With barely ten visitors at my house (Seth, Sam, Aldwin, Carl, Oliver, Benedict and James) to join me in my celebrations, I looked back at how the years have been to me and realise that kindness has grown more and more selfish each passing year. Too often, I have played the part of the martyr, the fool, the kind shoulder, the ever-willing soul, the passionate lover, the jilted paramor, the lonely watcher, the angry artist, the rejected writer, the middle child, the exhausted source of strength, the ignored font of ideas, and so many other roles. The numerous masks and faces I was tasked to wear, and in many cases required even to perform have exhausted every single possible year I had to the brink of self-immolation.
And yet, I live on.
Even when a paranoid repeat of the past threatens to tear away my stability, I live on.
Even when insensitivity and self-centeredness shove me to the fringes of shadows, I live on.
Even when personal goals, parasitic egos and jellyfish spines force me to support those I hate, I live on.
I live on regardless of the way old friends treat me like shit. I live on regardless of how mentors suddenly betray you to their own new cliques. I live on regardless of rumor, of spite, of ignorance, of indifference.
I shall live on and I shall continue to live on.
I once did live alone, after all.
You're all part of my life because I choose to let you be.
And I am a part of your life only when you allow me to be.
Happy 27th Birthday to me!
I'm already excited to see what crap builds up to make the next one just as memorable.
Friday, April 23, 2004
Still at work
...at 11:32p.m. two days before my birthday.
Talk about nice job eh? Well, guess what the clincher is:
I have to go to work this Sunday.
Yep, I have work on my birthday.
Then a shoot on Monday.
And a storyboard to finish and send that same day.
And a stalker who sends me mail and still hopes I can fall in love with her.
Not to mention a LOAD of others issues and annoying things that I really wish I could just toss away, or find some way to work with without having to get frustrated, irritated, depressed or fucking lunatic about.
Yeah Tobie... you're getting older.
Maybe if you're lucky, you'll die young.
...at 11:32p.m. two days before my birthday.
Talk about nice job eh? Well, guess what the clincher is:
I have to go to work this Sunday.
Yep, I have work on my birthday.
Then a shoot on Monday.
And a storyboard to finish and send that same day.
And a stalker who sends me mail and still hopes I can fall in love with her.
Not to mention a LOAD of others issues and annoying things that I really wish I could just toss away, or find some way to work with without having to get frustrated, irritated, depressed or fucking lunatic about.
Yeah Tobie... you're getting older.
Maybe if you're lucky, you'll die young.
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
Nyek...
Got to work at 8:00a.m. simply because I wanted to be on time for a 9:00a.m. presentation.
I deserve a raise, eh?
I am not surprised.
Eep
Running out of days. Gotta finish them pages for SIGLO.
God, please let them like them.
Got to work at 8:00a.m. simply because I wanted to be on time for a 9:00a.m. presentation.
I deserve a raise, eh?
I am not surprised.
What kith are you? Find out here.
Eep
Running out of days. Gotta finish them pages for SIGLO.
God, please let them like them.
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Ang TANGA TANGA KO...
Forgot to time in today.
Shit.
I do hope my boss allows me to still count my hours at work today.
Was working from 10:20a.m. til around 11:20p.m. but now I'm worried. Sana naman they help me out on this.
Finished FOUR frigging storyboards, and the infamousTVGuide today.
Well, until I learn of further revisions needed tomorrow, that is.
Sigh.
Lastly, I have to head home and get some sleep. Got a presentation tomorrow and I have to be back here at 9:00a.m. Uh yeah, I typed this AT WORK.
Someone find me an easier job.
Well, so long as it pays better too.
:-D
Forgot to time in today.
Shit.
I do hope my boss allows me to still count my hours at work today.
Was working from 10:20a.m. til around 11:20p.m. but now I'm worried. Sana naman they help me out on this.
Finished FOUR frigging storyboards, and the infamousTVGuide today.
Well, until I learn of further revisions needed tomorrow, that is.
Sigh.
Lastly, I have to head home and get some sleep. Got a presentation tomorrow and I have to be back here at 9:00a.m. Uh yeah, I typed this AT WORK.
Someone find me an easier job.
Well, so long as it pays better too.
:-D
Monday, April 19, 2004
Endings...
Just ended the Gehenna game last night. After ten long sessions of despair, death, heroism and hopelessness, the Time of Judgment Chronicle ended with a bang, followed by a whisper. Hope to get the website that chronciles the events of the game online soon.
And Beginnings.
Starting the next Time of Judgment game soon. This time, the target is Changeling: The Dreaming.
And this time, it is a fight for hope.
Just ended the Gehenna game last night. After ten long sessions of despair, death, heroism and hopelessness, the Time of Judgment Chronicle ended with a bang, followed by a whisper. Hope to get the website that chronciles the events of the game online soon.
And Beginnings.
Starting the next Time of Judgment game soon. This time, the target is Changeling: The Dreaming.
And this time, it is a fight for hope.
Friday, April 16, 2004
It is a friday and...
I had a meeting at 12:00 noon, as well as a pair of storyboards to finish today before lunch.
But guess what.
I woke up too late.
So I'm just staying home.
In two days alone, I racked up 47 hours of work. I am required to only commit 45 hours a week.
I want my well earned rest, damnnit.
I had a meeting at 12:00 noon, as well as a pair of storyboards to finish today before lunch.
But guess what.
I woke up too late.
So I'm just staying home.
In two days alone, I racked up 47 hours of work. I am required to only commit 45 hours a week.
I want my well earned rest, damnnit.
Thursday, April 15, 2004
Uh what day is it today?
My office clock here reads 4:30:21 AM and I am alone in an empty office that is lit with the glow of computer monitors. My Mac is playing the soundtrack to Final Fantasy X-2. Behind me is the UMATIC TAPE containing my very first produced as a producer of ABS-CBN Global project. I'm actually pretty proud to have done this project by my lonesome (an act initiated by the fact we are grossly undermanned here in this department, and there aren't enough funds supposedly to hire new people.) I only pray they realise that I have that much potential and either increase my salary or at least promote me vertically (which in case you didn't realise, also increases my salary ha!)
Tonight... or is it this morning... I am working on a few graphic requirements needed for Friday, as well as the upcoming TVGUIDE which is the "Tobie's Time of the Month Project" infamously known to cause incredible degrees of crankiness, lack of patience and bouts of euphoric creativity. My advance apologies to all who might get a sting of my cranky attitude soon enough. Know it was not intended.
Then, there's the added fact I forgot my toothbrush at the apartment today. Waaah... I wanted to have clean teeth and yummy breath come the next morning... but I guess that's a nada. Unless of course I choose to shell out cash and buy the said needed things at the 24-hour open Mini-Stop down below. I wonder if the office with reimburse my money for buying toothpaste and a good toothbrush.
Neal has added me to his blog. Happy as I am to know someone out there other than people I actually know have me listed in their blog, I can't help but wonder why. Is my blog really that interesting even to people who don't know me? Eep. :-) Still, THANK YOU!
Well, that's enough for a commercial break.
Back to work, slave!
Oh. Sorry about that. I saw my reflection.
My office clock here reads 4:30:21 AM and I am alone in an empty office that is lit with the glow of computer monitors. My Mac is playing the soundtrack to Final Fantasy X-2. Behind me is the UMATIC TAPE containing my very first produced as a producer of ABS-CBN Global project. I'm actually pretty proud to have done this project by my lonesome (an act initiated by the fact we are grossly undermanned here in this department, and there aren't enough funds supposedly to hire new people.) I only pray they realise that I have that much potential and either increase my salary or at least promote me vertically (which in case you didn't realise, also increases my salary ha!)
Tonight... or is it this morning... I am working on a few graphic requirements needed for Friday, as well as the upcoming TVGUIDE which is the "Tobie's Time of the Month Project" infamously known to cause incredible degrees of crankiness, lack of patience and bouts of euphoric creativity. My advance apologies to all who might get a sting of my cranky attitude soon enough. Know it was not intended.
Then, there's the added fact I forgot my toothbrush at the apartment today. Waaah... I wanted to have clean teeth and yummy breath come the next morning... but I guess that's a nada. Unless of course I choose to shell out cash and buy the said needed things at the 24-hour open Mini-Stop down below. I wonder if the office with reimburse my money for buying toothpaste and a good toothbrush.
Neal has added me to his blog. Happy as I am to know someone out there other than people I actually know have me listed in their blog, I can't help but wonder why. Is my blog really that interesting even to people who don't know me? Eep. :-) Still, THANK YOU!
Well, that's enough for a commercial break.
Back to work, slave!
Oh. Sorry about that. I saw my reflection.
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
A loooong day
..and it ain't over yet.
Still here at work and its already 5:20a.m. simply due to the sheer amount of work I have to tackle. Today marks my first day of handling a solo project as artist, producer and presentor. And guess what, it ain't over yet. The commercial template I am working on has four variations, and each variation has two versions. So far, finished one variation (with its Now Available and Coming Soon versions). That leaves three to go. Whew... And to make matters worse, my next work date is tomorrow at 10:00p.m. til 2:00a.m.
Argh.
And I'm not even getting paid more for this other than my usual over-time and night differential benefits.
To keep sane, I opted to spend my free hour working on a comic. Finished four new spanking pages for my Bangungot online comic. Check them out and make me smile with a compliment, why don'tcha?
Had to turn down a lunch with Elbert Or tomorrow (he wanted to meet up, catch up on old times and get the comic pages I made for our collaboration) simply due to the fact I might NOT wake up for it. Sigh.
And to make things worse, I have been a disappointment time and time again to the people who mean the most to me.
What else can make things worse I wonder.
..and it ain't over yet.
Still here at work and its already 5:20a.m. simply due to the sheer amount of work I have to tackle. Today marks my first day of handling a solo project as artist, producer and presentor. And guess what, it ain't over yet. The commercial template I am working on has four variations, and each variation has two versions. So far, finished one variation (with its Now Available and Coming Soon versions). That leaves three to go. Whew... And to make matters worse, my next work date is tomorrow at 10:00p.m. til 2:00a.m.
Argh.
And I'm not even getting paid more for this other than my usual over-time and night differential benefits.
To keep sane, I opted to spend my free hour working on a comic. Finished four new spanking pages for my Bangungot online comic. Check them out and make me smile with a compliment, why don'tcha?
Had to turn down a lunch with Elbert Or tomorrow (he wanted to meet up, catch up on old times and get the comic pages I made for our collaboration) simply due to the fact I might NOT wake up for it. Sigh.
And to make things worse, I have been a disappointment time and time again to the people who mean the most to me.
What else can make things worse I wonder.
Monday, April 12, 2004
Back to work...
Yep, it is Monday and so begins another year long trial of work, exhaustion, low pay and lots of experience. The day began with Seth reminding me to head to work early so I can leave early as well, followed by a call for help for financial support from a friend. Breakfast was great; Joey and I partook in the delicious tostadong hotdog with toasted bread at work and I opted to gurgle down a Chuckie Chocolate drink for fluids. Turns out, the boss will not be coming in today, which means this day will require a lot of initiative.
Watched the Cat with Hands again. Damn... I can't wait til I have the funds and time to make something like that. I am not giving up on my dreams to be an indie filmmaker, I tell you.
I'm not giving up.
Yep, it is Monday and so begins another year long trial of work, exhaustion, low pay and lots of experience. The day began with Seth reminding me to head to work early so I can leave early as well, followed by a call for help for financial support from a friend. Breakfast was great; Joey and I partook in the delicious tostadong hotdog with toasted bread at work and I opted to gurgle down a Chuckie Chocolate drink for fluids. Turns out, the boss will not be coming in today, which means this day will require a lot of initiative.
Watched the Cat with Hands again. Damn... I can't wait til I have the funds and time to make something like that. I am not giving up on my dreams to be an indie filmmaker, I tell you.
I'm not giving up.
Friday, April 09, 2004
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
Tuesday, April 06, 2004
Hmm... Tuesday and.. nothing really set for gaming yet
And this is weird, I tell you. Weird. Once, there was a time when accomodating players was the problem. When struggling to find a way to have ten.. fifteen people play in a single game was my biggest worry. And now, I toss an offer for gaming over the Holy Week break and I get two nibbles and a wayward note. Strange how times have indeed changed.
Better than none I guess.
Still haven't seen The Passion and frankly, I feel bad that I haven't. I don't tend to be religious, but I am a faithful person with firm beliefs that I hold on to. And I have to admit that the movie touches a part of me that I usually keep private. Naughty jokes aside, I think the film is a powerful evocative achievement and I do hope to get a chance to see it without annoying cellphone creeps beside my seat. Opted for the soundtrack to tide me over and I have to admit, it has proven to be a wonderful buy. Other than being very moving and very powerful... its perfect for scoring my roleplaying games!
Also, finally got a hold of the soundtrack to the movie Nausicaa by Studio Ghibli. Not as good nor as moving as I recall, but the main theme still gets me smiling and longing for a time when having around the Ohmu was part of my dreams. I dunno... this Lenten season is making me long for my past more than anything. Maybe its some throwback moment or something.
Had a strange dream a few nights ago. Haven't really told anyone, but I guess now is a good time to post it.
I saw old friends. Old faces. Eddie. Tom. Dave. Popay. Wanggo. Chrissie. Rex. Gigi. Aileen. Charles. Mike. People from a college organization called Malate that I was formerly part of. They were laughing. They were sharing jokes and tossing comments about people they knew. And I was watching them enjoy the party and the joking and the drinks and only realised after an amount of time that none of them could see me.
And it was then I realised why.
Because I was the reason they had a gathering. I was dead.
Typically, dying in a dream is a symbolic death. A change of self. A transformation of who one once was to what one can now become. And the appearance of the Malate group suggests this meant a change in the direction or the influences of that group. Perhaps if I was a bastard in that group's mindset before, I ain't one anymore. Or vice versa. Maybe I was really an artist then. But now?
I don't really know.
Not too long ago, someone killed the romantic in me.
And just before that, someone took from me what I wasn't willing to give.
Both I have forgiven and still found myself being treated as the one at fault.
Just like before when my heart was broken by a nine-month long lie
and yet found the strength to forgive the same person that same night.
And still I was the one seen as the cruel one.
Now, I am happier. I am independent. I got my own apartment. I got a good job. I got wonderful friends.
And I got a life. One that I can be proud of. One that I can share with others. Ah I am rambling.
Enough. Back to work.
Toodles, Mr. Jim.
And this is weird, I tell you. Weird. Once, there was a time when accomodating players was the problem. When struggling to find a way to have ten.. fifteen people play in a single game was my biggest worry. And now, I toss an offer for gaming over the Holy Week break and I get two nibbles and a wayward note. Strange how times have indeed changed.
Better than none I guess.
Still haven't seen The Passion and frankly, I feel bad that I haven't. I don't tend to be religious, but I am a faithful person with firm beliefs that I hold on to. And I have to admit that the movie touches a part of me that I usually keep private. Naughty jokes aside, I think the film is a powerful evocative achievement and I do hope to get a chance to see it without annoying cellphone creeps beside my seat. Opted for the soundtrack to tide me over and I have to admit, it has proven to be a wonderful buy. Other than being very moving and very powerful... its perfect for scoring my roleplaying games!
Also, finally got a hold of the soundtrack to the movie Nausicaa by Studio Ghibli. Not as good nor as moving as I recall, but the main theme still gets me smiling and longing for a time when having around the Ohmu was part of my dreams. I dunno... this Lenten season is making me long for my past more than anything. Maybe its some throwback moment or something.
Had a strange dream a few nights ago. Haven't really told anyone, but I guess now is a good time to post it.
I saw old friends. Old faces. Eddie. Tom. Dave. Popay. Wanggo. Chrissie. Rex. Gigi. Aileen. Charles. Mike. People from a college organization called Malate that I was formerly part of. They were laughing. They were sharing jokes and tossing comments about people they knew. And I was watching them enjoy the party and the joking and the drinks and only realised after an amount of time that none of them could see me.
And it was then I realised why.
Because I was the reason they had a gathering. I was dead.
Typically, dying in a dream is a symbolic death. A change of self. A transformation of who one once was to what one can now become. And the appearance of the Malate group suggests this meant a change in the direction or the influences of that group. Perhaps if I was a bastard in that group's mindset before, I ain't one anymore. Or vice versa. Maybe I was really an artist then. But now?
I don't really know.
Not too long ago, someone killed the romantic in me.
And just before that, someone took from me what I wasn't willing to give.
Both I have forgiven and still found myself being treated as the one at fault.
Just like before when my heart was broken by a nine-month long lie
and yet found the strength to forgive the same person that same night.
And still I was the one seen as the cruel one.
Now, I am happier. I am independent. I got my own apartment. I got a good job. I got wonderful friends.
And I got a life. One that I can be proud of. One that I can share with others. Ah I am rambling.
Enough. Back to work.
Toodles, Mr. Jim.
Monday, April 05, 2004
Haaay salamat
Found the LOTR Two Towers DVDs.
Stupid me. Forgot I lent it to John Boy, an old friend of mine from college.
New song I really like
HARANA
by Parokya Ni Edgar
Uso pa ba ang harana
marahil ikaw ay nagtataka
sino ba tong mukhang gagong
nagkandarapa sa pagkanta
at nasisintunado sa kaba
Meron pang dalang mga rosas
suot nama'y maong na kupas
kasama ko pa ang barkada
na nakaporma't nakabarong
sa awiting daig pa'ng minus one at sing along
puno ang langit ng bitwin
at kay lamig pa ng hangin
sa'yong tingin akoy nababaliw giliw
at sa awiting kong ito
na sana'y maibigan mo
binubuhos ko ang buong puso ko
sa isang munting haranang para sa yo
Di ba't parang isang sine
isang pelikulang romantiko
di ba't parang ikaw ang bidang artista
at ako ang iyong leading man
sa istoryang nagwawakas sa pag-ibig na wagas
Found the LOTR Two Towers DVDs.
Stupid me. Forgot I lent it to John Boy, an old friend of mine from college.
New song I really like
HARANA
by Parokya Ni Edgar
Uso pa ba ang harana
marahil ikaw ay nagtataka
sino ba tong mukhang gagong
nagkandarapa sa pagkanta
at nasisintunado sa kaba
Meron pang dalang mga rosas
suot nama'y maong na kupas
kasama ko pa ang barkada
na nakaporma't nakabarong
sa awiting daig pa'ng minus one at sing along
puno ang langit ng bitwin
at kay lamig pa ng hangin
sa'yong tingin akoy nababaliw giliw
at sa awiting kong ito
na sana'y maibigan mo
binubuhos ko ang buong puso ko
sa isang munting haranang para sa yo
Di ba't parang isang sine
isang pelikulang romantiko
di ba't parang ikaw ang bidang artista
at ako ang iyong leading man
sa istoryang nagwawakas sa pag-ibig na wagas
What a way to start the week
First, it rained. Thankfully, I didn't get wet, but yeah it rained.
Who would have thought eh?
Second, I woke up around quarter to eleven. Gah. Had a deadline to hit and I barely woke up in time to get to work early enough to do it. Actually, I was pretty much late. Stupid me and all, not waking early enough. Body clock at a fritz. Add to that the fact I'd probably be stuck here at the office til ten tonight.
Sheesh.
Thirdly, I can't find my DVD of Lord of the Rings: Two Towers Extended.
I recall lending it out to two people: my boss and Ma-an, but neither of them has it. They both recall returning it and now I am in a fucked up state of wondering if I actually lost the damned thing. Shit.... original pa man din yon. I mass-emailled everyone here at work and asked them if they know who has my DVDs. Obviously, the problem with doing this is that if someone out there does have it and covets it, he/she knows now that he/she can get away with simply keeping it and claiming to have never had it. Fuuuuck.... I doubt my officemates are like that, but one never can tell eh?
Mondays are crappy.
Like old shoes that have been infested with ants.
Or them Playstation 2 controllers that seem to have a love for breaking easily.
Fuuuuuuck...
First, it rained. Thankfully, I didn't get wet, but yeah it rained.
Who would have thought eh?
Second, I woke up around quarter to eleven. Gah. Had a deadline to hit and I barely woke up in time to get to work early enough to do it. Actually, I was pretty much late. Stupid me and all, not waking early enough. Body clock at a fritz. Add to that the fact I'd probably be stuck here at the office til ten tonight.
Sheesh.
Thirdly, I can't find my DVD of Lord of the Rings: Two Towers Extended.
I recall lending it out to two people: my boss and Ma-an, but neither of them has it. They both recall returning it and now I am in a fucked up state of wondering if I actually lost the damned thing. Shit.... original pa man din yon. I mass-emailled everyone here at work and asked them if they know who has my DVDs. Obviously, the problem with doing this is that if someone out there does have it and covets it, he/she knows now that he/she can get away with simply keeping it and claiming to have never had it. Fuuuuck.... I doubt my officemates are like that, but one never can tell eh?
Mondays are crappy.
Like old shoes that have been infested with ants.
Or them Playstation 2 controllers that seem to have a love for breaking easily.
Fuuuuuuck...
Friday, April 02, 2004
Haaaay... Thank GOD it is Friday!
Just have to survive this day and it will be a happy happy weekend!
Been wanting to grab a few books for the past few days, but thanks to the ever bunjee-jumping Peso, the dollar prices have shot for the roof. Now, I can only afford one of the seven books I've been earning up for.
Can't wait to get a jump on gaming again. Been running just one game per weekend, and been hoping to get back to more than one chronicle running per month. Here's hoping I get find a way to do so. The main problem so far has been the need for a venue to run my games.
Lastly, I have NOT seen any movies as of the late.
Hmm... then again, in as much as I heard Passion is a really really really good movie, I have to admit, I don't really feel like I'm in the mood for something like that. Maybe Dawn of the Dead, or maybe even the next Resident Evil movie. But no.. not really feeling Passion-able as of the late.
Just have to survive this day and it will be a happy happy weekend!
Been wanting to grab a few books for the past few days, but thanks to the ever bunjee-jumping Peso, the dollar prices have shot for the roof. Now, I can only afford one of the seven books I've been earning up for.
Can't wait to get a jump on gaming again. Been running just one game per weekend, and been hoping to get back to more than one chronicle running per month. Here's hoping I get find a way to do so. The main problem so far has been the need for a venue to run my games.
Lastly, I have NOT seen any movies as of the late.
Hmm... then again, in as much as I heard Passion is a really really really good movie, I have to admit, I don't really feel like I'm in the mood for something like that. Maybe Dawn of the Dead, or maybe even the next Resident Evil movie. But no.. not really feeling Passion-able as of the late.
Thursday, April 01, 2004
Something I posted in AEGIS.com
I QUIT.
I guess eventually, it had to come to this.
My apologies to all those who had hoped to play but....
I'm no longer running any games.
I guess I just got tired of the whole hobby and all.
The way work has been taxing me has just gotten way to much to handle. And then, there's the issue concerning
the forever rising costs of books, dice and pencils. World of Darkness ended really nicely, but the new WOD
is coming out within this year too and I don't think I can cope anymore with the expenses.
Then there's this serious lack of players and interested in trying games which really
bums me out for buying all these useless books which are just wasting space and gathering dust.
So damn it, i quit. I'm gonna go find a new hobby.
Perhaps get into Ragnarok or something.
Hell, maybe even fashion shows.
So if anyone wants any of my rpg books, just email me back okay.
And realise after a moment that it is April 1.
Happy April Fools day!
:-D
Joke Joke Joke!!!
tobie
I QUIT.
I guess eventually, it had to come to this.
My apologies to all those who had hoped to play but....
I'm no longer running any games.
I guess I just got tired of the whole hobby and all.
The way work has been taxing me has just gotten way to much to handle. And then, there's the issue concerning
the forever rising costs of books, dice and pencils. World of Darkness ended really nicely, but the new WOD
is coming out within this year too and I don't think I can cope anymore with the expenses.
Then there's this serious lack of players and interested in trying games which really
bums me out for buying all these useless books which are just wasting space and gathering dust.
So damn it, i quit. I'm gonna go find a new hobby.
Perhaps get into Ragnarok or something.
Hell, maybe even fashion shows.
So if anyone wants any of my rpg books, just email me back okay.
And realise after a moment that it is April 1.
Happy April Fools day!
:-D
Joke Joke Joke!!!
tobie
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