DAMN IT
I can't do this right now. I want to let it out and free myself from some stress but damn it, writing it on this blog isn't an option. So all I can do is write about how much I want to fucking write about it and let it out. PUNTANG INA... Who would have thought that things can affect a person even if they have happened so long ago. Even if they were things that have been "fixed" already. And who would have thought I'd be going through these feelings and frustrations tonight, of all nights, while at work. Last thing I need is someone here at my office seeing me in this state.
Oh, that would just make a huge world of things even worse.
Times like this, a little voice in the back of my head starts whispering, "So why haven't you just upped and gone off to the United States to get that Master's degree and bring home that fucking Oscar then?" You know what... those reasons too are things I can never really write about. PUNYETA. That's how it has to be. Living in a world where people who have never even met you would tear you down and spread malicious things about to on the behest of others... exposing my vulnerabilities to that extent is a risk I rather live without, thank you very much. One man's patience and generosity can only go so far. Much less one man's respect for those who cannot respect him back.
At least there are always good things to focus on instead.
Like Tori Amos. And White Wolf Games. And DSL connections that work. And good friends who actually are people who care about you. And parents. And siblings. And nephews and neices. And movie scores. And indie comic books. And dreams. And Clive Barker. And American Beauty. And H.R. Giger's Alien. And pigs. And piglets. And tocino. And inihaw na okra. And boneless bangus. And bagoong balayan. And free food. And videoke. And staying up all night. And Cherry Coke. And Blogs.
Well, that was an attempt.
Didn't help much, but it did at least stop the urge to throw the computer monitor at the nearest window and watch the glass shards fall with the rain.
I'm heading home, damn it.
And yes, FUCK Kill Bill vol.2
I'll just watch the pirated version when I have the chance.
Wednesday, June 30, 2004
Who would have thought?
I'm jealous. Damn I am. They're showing a preview of Kill Bill vol.2 at work tomorrow around 6p.m. and I don't think I can go. Others are going and damn, I wish I could go. But as my life tends to be things are more complicated than they seem and watching a movie isn't as simple as leaving work and entering a theater.
There are responsibilities to handle. Promises to keep. And things that need tending to.
Still, I'm fucking jealous.
I am.
I'm jealous. Damn I am. They're showing a preview of Kill Bill vol.2 at work tomorrow around 6p.m. and I don't think I can go. Others are going and damn, I wish I could go. But as my life tends to be things are more complicated than they seem and watching a movie isn't as simple as leaving work and entering a theater.
There are responsibilities to handle. Promises to keep. And things that need tending to.
Still, I'm fucking jealous.
I am.
Tuesday, June 29, 2004
New Poison
New stuff keeping me sane.
Check them out when you have time.
1) Kingdom of Loathing
2) Homestarrunner.com
3) Mr. Bean Animated
Hehehe..
New stuff keeping me sane.
Check them out when you have time.
1) Kingdom of Loathing
2) Homestarrunner.com
3) Mr. Bean Animated
Hehehe..
Sunday, June 27, 2004
Instant Wish List
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Who wants to buy all the issues for me?
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Who wants to buy all the issues for me?
Sunday Winding Down
With Sunday winding down, I scoped a copy of Around the World in 80 Days of Jackie Chan and finally got a copy of Resident Evil: Outbreak for the PS2.
So far, the new Jackie Chan movie is turning out to feel like a mix between Shanghai Noon and Moulin Rouge with a touch of some interesting animated segments to interlock varying locations in the world. Although there was some generous creative adjustment involved with the plot, I liked how it is turning out over-all so far. Although I opted not to finish the movie for now (the need to go to my PC won over the urge to see how the story pans out), I would still recommend it for those who are seeking for a fun action-adventure flick.
As to Resident Evil: Outbreak, well... it still doesn't really compell me to try it as much as having a new installment of Silent Hill would have, so I haven't really tried playing it yet.
Silent Raving
Yes. I love Silent Hill. I'm sorry but I do.
Heck, if it were possible, I'd actually run more Silent Hill RPGs but its hard to capture the mood and play those sort of games unless you got players who really are game to get scared. Now, if you know anyone who is more curious to know more about Silent Hill's world, I'd recommend you check out The Silent Hill Encyclopedia which has a good encyclopediac resource on the concepts, myths and ideas behind Silent Hill. Then there's Silent Hill Network which has transcriptions of all the memos, endings and characters in the four games so far.
Silent Hill...
Such a beautiful place...
With Sunday winding down, I scoped a copy of Around the World in 80 Days of Jackie Chan and finally got a copy of Resident Evil: Outbreak for the PS2.
So far, the new Jackie Chan movie is turning out to feel like a mix between Shanghai Noon and Moulin Rouge with a touch of some interesting animated segments to interlock varying locations in the world. Although there was some generous creative adjustment involved with the plot, I liked how it is turning out over-all so far. Although I opted not to finish the movie for now (the need to go to my PC won over the urge to see how the story pans out), I would still recommend it for those who are seeking for a fun action-adventure flick.
As to Resident Evil: Outbreak, well... it still doesn't really compell me to try it as much as having a new installment of Silent Hill would have, so I haven't really tried playing it yet.
Silent Raving
Yes. I love Silent Hill. I'm sorry but I do.
Heck, if it were possible, I'd actually run more Silent Hill RPGs but its hard to capture the mood and play those sort of games unless you got players who really are game to get scared. Now, if you know anyone who is more curious to know more about Silent Hill's world, I'd recommend you check out The Silent Hill Encyclopedia which has a good encyclopediac resource on the concepts, myths and ideas behind Silent Hill. Then there's Silent Hill Network which has transcriptions of all the memos, endings and characters in the four games so far.
Silent Hill...
Such a beautiful place...
Saturday, June 26, 2004
Saturday at laaaaaaaaaaaaaaast...
Getting prepped for the coming Orpheus game, and I have to admit, I am excited. Been mapping out mentally the plans for the game for nearly a week and tonight is the night I spring it upon my players. I do hope this game goes well.
AY SHEEEET wala nga pala si Sam. Waaah.. he's been the best player for the game so far. Too bad he won't be present for it this weekend. waaaaaaaaaaaaah.....
Bye bye City Hall
With my Dad closing shop at Paranaque City Hall, life will be a tad different now that he doesn't have to worry too much about public safety, health and all that jazz. At least now he can spend time being a father, a husband and a really good golfer who scores at least one hole-in-one per year. My mom is a tad sad about it, but me, I think its good. Dad has been serving the city for so long its easy to see now all the crap and plastic people that live in Paranaque. Being able to tell who were the real people with real hearts was good. Now it is time to separate from those users and live more fulfilling lives with people who truly care.
Seeking Spa
Gawwwwwwwwwd I need a trip to the spa. Need to get my damn muscles kneaded a bit. So fucking tired I feel like an elephant sat on me while masturbating to ostrich porn or something. Anyone know a good clean spa with a good view?
Getting prepped for the coming Orpheus game, and I have to admit, I am excited. Been mapping out mentally the plans for the game for nearly a week and tonight is the night I spring it upon my players. I do hope this game goes well.
AY SHEEEET wala nga pala si Sam. Waaah.. he's been the best player for the game so far. Too bad he won't be present for it this weekend. waaaaaaaaaaaaah.....
Bye bye City Hall
With my Dad closing shop at Paranaque City Hall, life will be a tad different now that he doesn't have to worry too much about public safety, health and all that jazz. At least now he can spend time being a father, a husband and a really good golfer who scores at least one hole-in-one per year. My mom is a tad sad about it, but me, I think its good. Dad has been serving the city for so long its easy to see now all the crap and plastic people that live in Paranaque. Being able to tell who were the real people with real hearts was good. Now it is time to separate from those users and live more fulfilling lives with people who truly care.
Seeking Spa
Gawwwwwwwwwd I need a trip to the spa. Need to get my damn muscles kneaded a bit. So fucking tired I feel like an elephant sat on me while masturbating to ostrich porn or something. Anyone know a good clean spa with a good view?
Friday, June 25, 2004
It is Friday at last
Funny how it doesn't feel much like one.
Anyhow, saw Gothika today and found it interesting, but not as gripping as Dawn of the Dead (whose website is just as gripping as the movie itself!) Do check out the game BARRICADE in the site too. AStig... freaks me out! Black out is another simple yet amazingly freaky game. I love this site.
But yeah, Gothika has a good touch on horror and effects. The last scene was kind of too... obviously faked. Mas nagustuhan ko pa yung part when she has a "rewind" than that scene.
I don't get why its called Gothika either.
Funny how it doesn't feel much like one.
Anyhow, saw Gothika today and found it interesting, but not as gripping as Dawn of the Dead (whose website is just as gripping as the movie itself!) Do check out the game BARRICADE in the site too. AStig... freaks me out! Black out is another simple yet amazingly freaky game. I love this site.
But yeah, Gothika has a good touch on horror and effects. The last scene was kind of too... obviously faked. Mas nagustuhan ko pa yung part when she has a "rewind" than that scene.
I don't get why its called Gothika either.
The 3rd Philippine Toys, Hobbies and Collectibles
... is coming this Sunday. I was to handle AEGIS gaming demos and card games but things aren't turing out nicely for me to be able to make it work out. Damn it... I really feel bad about this.
Why is everyone so busy with their own lives now a days?
Sheesh.
... is coming this Sunday. I was to handle AEGIS gaming demos and card games but things aren't turing out nicely for me to be able to make it work out. Damn it... I really feel bad about this.
Why is everyone so busy with their own lives now a days?
Sheesh.
Thursday, June 24, 2004
I am very very very frustrated today
There are just so many depths of frustration that can hit a single person in a single day. My god, today probably has hit a world record as far as I know... but rather than bore you with the details, let me be constructive by instead giving you an update on what my life is going through.
1) Turned Down Possible Job Interview
A really good friend offered me a release from my current job. At first, I admit, I was tremendously appreciative and excited at the prospect, but after a few minutes I realised there were things I was overlooking in my excitement. Things that I myself try to remind others when given the opportunity: Friendship and Work do not always mix well together. And considering the last thing I wanted was a dear friend feeling betrayed, and another friend getting mad at me for work-related concerns (and vice versa), I opted to turn it down.
Too bad. It really had a lot of promise too.
2) Siglo pages are..
...done as far as illustrating them is concerned. Coloring them is not as easy as it seems, it turns out. Damn, makes me wish I didn't have a day job to keep me from doing this.
Diliman 13 is..
...now in production. Drew around six pages today alone. Damn, that story is really roaring to be released. Had to redo around seven pages due to the sudden shift to something like a mix between anime and x-men came out of my pen. Must have something to do with seeing Sinbad last night.
Money wise, I am drowning
But not in debt. Rather in the lack of finances because I was too stupid enough to lend money out to people who haven't been able to pay me back any time early. Short financially by at least six thousand pesos, I am close to acting like a miser if I don't find an alternate source of income soon.
I guess I better stop using my phone (line) for a while. Well, if while can be defined as two months.
heh.
American Idol late bloomer
Found a site called American Idol By Request, and found a huge load of mp3s there waiting to be enjoyed. I got to admit, now I wish I watched the show religiously just to see everything I am hearing. Of course, I guess buti na rin hindi since I don't even have any local channels in my telly at home.
But damn, those people can sing!
Things I have been wanting to buy but have placed on indefinite hold due to the stupid money problem I am in
Well, where do I start?
1) Haircut
2) New X-Men trades thru Strangehaven.com
3) Sandman trades thru Strangehaven.com
4) Some comics thru Elbert
5) Some comic thru Wilson
6) End Game: book six of Orpheus
7) A host of stuff at ComicQuest I rather not name out of sheer frustration
8) More polyboxes for my room which is starting to turn into a comfortable dump site
9) New shoes considering I can't seem to find any of my "office shoes" to still be wearable, and two of my five rubber shoes are on the verge of dying. One of them, on the other hand, is beyond wearing.
10) Money to go Videoke. It was a release I really appreciated. Well, and miss now that you think about it.
Life goes on.
There are just so many depths of frustration that can hit a single person in a single day. My god, today probably has hit a world record as far as I know... but rather than bore you with the details, let me be constructive by instead giving you an update on what my life is going through.
1) Turned Down Possible Job Interview
A really good friend offered me a release from my current job. At first, I admit, I was tremendously appreciative and excited at the prospect, but after a few minutes I realised there were things I was overlooking in my excitement. Things that I myself try to remind others when given the opportunity: Friendship and Work do not always mix well together. And considering the last thing I wanted was a dear friend feeling betrayed, and another friend getting mad at me for work-related concerns (and vice versa), I opted to turn it down.
Too bad. It really had a lot of promise too.
2) Siglo pages are..
...done as far as illustrating them is concerned. Coloring them is not as easy as it seems, it turns out. Damn, makes me wish I didn't have a day job to keep me from doing this.
Diliman 13 is..
...now in production. Drew around six pages today alone. Damn, that story is really roaring to be released. Had to redo around seven pages due to the sudden shift to something like a mix between anime and x-men came out of my pen. Must have something to do with seeing Sinbad last night.
Money wise, I am drowning
But not in debt. Rather in the lack of finances because I was too stupid enough to lend money out to people who haven't been able to pay me back any time early. Short financially by at least six thousand pesos, I am close to acting like a miser if I don't find an alternate source of income soon.
I guess I better stop using my phone (line) for a while. Well, if while can be defined as two months.
heh.
American Idol late bloomer
Found a site called American Idol By Request, and found a huge load of mp3s there waiting to be enjoyed. I got to admit, now I wish I watched the show religiously just to see everything I am hearing. Of course, I guess buti na rin hindi since I don't even have any local channels in my telly at home.
But damn, those people can sing!
Things I have been wanting to buy but have placed on indefinite hold due to the stupid money problem I am in
Well, where do I start?
1) Haircut
2) New X-Men trades thru Strangehaven.com
3) Sandman trades thru Strangehaven.com
4) Some comics thru Elbert
5) Some comic thru Wilson
6) End Game: book six of Orpheus
7) A host of stuff at ComicQuest I rather not name out of sheer frustration
8) More polyboxes for my room which is starting to turn into a comfortable dump site
9) New shoes considering I can't seem to find any of my "office shoes" to still be wearable, and two of my five rubber shoes are on the verge of dying. One of them, on the other hand, is beyond wearing.
10) Money to go Videoke. It was a release I really appreciated. Well, and miss now that you think about it.
Life goes on.
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
Found this in Jac's blob
Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com
Do check out her comic Jac Strips for You which should be available at the 3rd Philippine Toy Con which shall be held in Megatrade Hall 3 in Mega mall this Sunday.
| T | Trustworthy |
| O | Overwhelming |
| B | Bright |
| I | Intelligent |
| E | Enjoyable |
| A | Ambitious |
| B | Beautiful |
| A | Astounding |
| D | Dreamy |
Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com
Do check out her comic Jac Strips for You which should be available at the 3rd Philippine Toy Con which shall be held in Megatrade Hall 3 in Mega mall this Sunday.
Slow day today
Though the work piled higher than yesterday, it feels like a slow day today. I guess that has to do with the act of resizing a 2.5x3 inch phone card into a 3 x 6 feet banner. Took practically three hours to enlarge without resolution loss, then around an hour to save. My god... and it still ain't even done yet. Have to get the "final call" on what phone numbers and other contact details to place on the lower corner. Once that's done, got a ballpen design, a key chain, a mouse pad, and a membership kit to follow suit. Work is work so I guess its not so bad. So long as I get to finish them all before Friday of course.
TVGuide week continues til Wednesday since I got the cover to revise. Going to do that once the banner is done saving. Whew...
SIGLO continues
Art is done. Coloring now moving forward. Gotta hurry.
DILIMAN 13
Is already fermenting in my head. Scribbled two pages that needed to be drawn. Starting to notice that the comic might take a few notches away from horror and start feeling a tad like a superhero comic... well I guess that's expected since the cast is about to take the fight to the aswangs. Here's hoping it still has a fan base who wants to read it.
Though the work piled higher than yesterday, it feels like a slow day today. I guess that has to do with the act of resizing a 2.5x3 inch phone card into a 3 x 6 feet banner. Took practically three hours to enlarge without resolution loss, then around an hour to save. My god... and it still ain't even done yet. Have to get the "final call" on what phone numbers and other contact details to place on the lower corner. Once that's done, got a ballpen design, a key chain, a mouse pad, and a membership kit to follow suit. Work is work so I guess its not so bad. So long as I get to finish them all before Friday of course.
TVGuide week continues til Wednesday since I got the cover to revise. Going to do that once the banner is done saving. Whew...
SIGLO continues
Art is done. Coloring now moving forward. Gotta hurry.
DILIMAN 13
Is already fermenting in my head. Scribbled two pages that needed to be drawn. Starting to notice that the comic might take a few notches away from horror and start feeling a tad like a superhero comic... well I guess that's expected since the cast is about to take the fight to the aswangs. Here's hoping it still has a fan base who wants to read it.
Monday, June 21, 2004
I Keep finding interesting things in Jay's blog
Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com
| How to make a tobie |
| Ingredients: 5 parts mercy 1 part self-sufficiency 1 part leadership |
| Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Top it off with a sprinkle of lovability and enjoy! |
Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com
Just waiting for my hair to dry
It is two minutes to 2a.m. and I am still awake on a Monday morning. Although I know a skyscraper of work expects me to climb it in a few hours, for now I am just relaxing and waiting for my (now getting long) hair to dry. Although I have no idea if there is any scientific basis behind it, it is supposedly not healthy to sleep if your hair is still wet.
Hmm... let's see if the internet can help me figure out why:
Well, the first link I found was from Yahoo! itself!
This says:
"Dear Yahoo!:
Is it bad to sleep with wet hair?
Wethead
San Gabriel, California
Dear Wethead:
We couldn't find any medical reason not to (e.g., you'll go blind, you'll get pneumonia, etc.), but if you're serious about hair health, we'd advise against it. Most of our research comes from hair product sites, but here's what we found:
Instyle Hair warns against sleeping with wet hair, saying when hair is wet, "the hydrogen bond is broken." Therefore, hair strands are more fragile and easier to break.
Tenderheaded Accessories ("Pampered hair is healthy hair") offers a wide-toothed comb that's specifically designed for wet hair. Why? Because wet hair is "hair's most fragile state."
Apparently, restless sleepers can damage their hair on regular cotton pillow cases. Makers of the Divine Satin Hair Pillow suggest that their silky pillow is much easier on sensitive hairstyles.
To prevent hair breakage, the Long Hair Group suggests that you "put your hair up" in ponytail before going to sleep and only brush dry hair. Again, these are only suggestions.
And finally, a Yahoo! Search on "wet+hair+sleep" resulted in this cautionary fairy tale from Guam. Read it and make up your own mind (or head). "
Interesting. Very interesting eh? I liked the cautionary fairy tale from Guam though. Here it is, taken from its webpage.
the legend of the girl who slept with wet hair
long ago, there was a little ten year old girl. this little girl
one night asked her mother if she could take a bath. the little girl's mother
saw that it was dark, and declined the little girls request. the mother also
knew that if she took a shower now and slept write away, the little girl would
get sick.
the little girl wanted to take a bath so bad that she ignored her mothers
orders. she took a bath, and got her hair wet. the little girl could not get her
hair fully dried so she gave up and went to bed with wet hair.
when she woke, she screamed. her mother rushed to check her daughter, and
when she saw her she fainted. the little girl had no nose and lost three fingers.
because of this little girls experience, no chamoru girl would sleep with wet hair
ever again.
Well, let's see if I'll lose my nose, and my three fingers then.
Good night!
It is two minutes to 2a.m. and I am still awake on a Monday morning. Although I know a skyscraper of work expects me to climb it in a few hours, for now I am just relaxing and waiting for my (now getting long) hair to dry. Although I have no idea if there is any scientific basis behind it, it is supposedly not healthy to sleep if your hair is still wet.
Hmm... let's see if the internet can help me figure out why:
Well, the first link I found was from Yahoo! itself!
This says:
"Dear Yahoo!:
Is it bad to sleep with wet hair?
Wethead
San Gabriel, California
Dear Wethead:
We couldn't find any medical reason not to (e.g., you'll go blind, you'll get pneumonia, etc.), but if you're serious about hair health, we'd advise against it. Most of our research comes from hair product sites, but here's what we found:
Instyle Hair warns against sleeping with wet hair, saying when hair is wet, "the hydrogen bond is broken." Therefore, hair strands are more fragile and easier to break.
Tenderheaded Accessories ("Pampered hair is healthy hair") offers a wide-toothed comb that's specifically designed for wet hair. Why? Because wet hair is "hair's most fragile state."
Apparently, restless sleepers can damage their hair on regular cotton pillow cases. Makers of the Divine Satin Hair Pillow suggest that their silky pillow is much easier on sensitive hairstyles.
To prevent hair breakage, the Long Hair Group suggests that you "put your hair up" in ponytail before going to sleep and only brush dry hair. Again, these are only suggestions.
And finally, a Yahoo! Search on "wet+hair+sleep" resulted in this cautionary fairy tale from Guam. Read it and make up your own mind (or head). "
Interesting. Very interesting eh? I liked the cautionary fairy tale from Guam though. Here it is, taken from its webpage.
the legend of the girl who slept with wet hair
long ago, there was a little ten year old girl. this little girl
one night asked her mother if she could take a bath. the little girl's mother
saw that it was dark, and declined the little girls request. the mother also
knew that if she took a shower now and slept write away, the little girl would
get sick.
the little girl wanted to take a bath so bad that she ignored her mothers
orders. she took a bath, and got her hair wet. the little girl could not get her
hair fully dried so she gave up and went to bed with wet hair.
when she woke, she screamed. her mother rushed to check her daughter, and
when she saw her she fainted. the little girl had no nose and lost three fingers.
because of this little girls experience, no chamoru girl would sleep with wet hair
ever again.
Well, let's see if I'll lose my nose, and my three fingers then.
Good night!
Friday, June 18, 2004
HAPPY FATHER's DAY!
Yep, advanced Happy Father's day to my Dad, my brother, Marco, Erwin, James, Dean, Ner, and a load of uncles, grand-daddies and papas out there.
Friday at last
And I realise I will not be able to make up for the day (Tuesday) I opted to get some rest. So that's one leave-form I have to scratch and fill up.
SIGLO:PASSION update
Last few touches on the final page. Coloring has begun too.
Yep, advanced Happy Father's day to my Dad, my brother, Marco, Erwin, James, Dean, Ner, and a load of uncles, grand-daddies and papas out there.
Friday at last
And I realise I will not be able to make up for the day (Tuesday) I opted to get some rest. So that's one leave-form I have to scratch and fill up.
SIGLO:PASSION update
Last few touches on the final page. Coloring has begun too.
Thursday, June 17, 2004
Some movies whose trailers have purchased my soul
Here are some movies I am very anxious to see. Their trailers just blew me away. In no particular order:
Aliens vs Predator
The trailer really hit the spot I wanted to see. And having Lance Henriksen back is a great thing even if he isn't Bishop.
Lemony Snicket's Series of Unfortunate Events
Collect some eyes!
Fahrenheit 9/11
After the amazing film "Bowling for Columbine", this movie should rock! Yay!!! Michael Moore is the modern day's version of King Mob minus the guns!
I, Robot
Always loved robot films.
Catwoman
Even with the huge list of things I don't like about this version of Catwoman, I have to say the trailer got me interested.
Constantine
See Catwoman above.
And last but definitely not the least...
The Stepford Wives
Coooooooooooolness....
Now, if only I can have more money to see them all.
Here are some movies I am very anxious to see. Their trailers just blew me away. In no particular order:
Aliens vs Predator
The trailer really hit the spot I wanted to see. And having Lance Henriksen back is a great thing even if he isn't Bishop.
Lemony Snicket's Series of Unfortunate Events
Collect some eyes!
Fahrenheit 9/11
After the amazing film "Bowling for Columbine", this movie should rock! Yay!!! Michael Moore is the modern day's version of King Mob minus the guns!
I, Robot
Always loved robot films.
Catwoman
Even with the huge list of things I don't like about this version of Catwoman, I have to say the trailer got me interested.
Constantine
See Catwoman above.
And last but definitely not the least...
The Stepford Wives
Coooooooooooolness....
Now, if only I can have more money to see them all.
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
It is One Thirty Four in the Morning
and I am still at work even as the Servivce Awards night has ended. Still have some last minute work to do which was just texted to me. Party tipsy and partly weirded out by the fact that the night went extremely well regardless of the minor problems that cropped up.
I think I'll stay in tomorrow.
I don't think I can wake up early, nor be in the mood to work once I get up tomorrow. The tequila, the red wine, the beer and the dancing kinda created a deadly mix. Well, at least I know that people at work really appreciate me and my work. And that no matter what other elements may naysay about me to the public, to the people whom I really am close to, I am understood and accepted as the person I have become.
Yes. I love working here in ABS-CBN Global Limited. It ain't Heaven, but definitely, it ain't hell either.
and I am still at work even as the Servivce Awards night has ended. Still have some last minute work to do which was just texted to me. Party tipsy and partly weirded out by the fact that the night went extremely well regardless of the minor problems that cropped up.
I think I'll stay in tomorrow.
I don't think I can wake up early, nor be in the mood to work once I get up tomorrow. The tequila, the red wine, the beer and the dancing kinda created a deadly mix. Well, at least I know that people at work really appreciate me and my work. And that no matter what other elements may naysay about me to the public, to the people whom I really am close to, I am understood and accepted as the person I have become.
Yes. I love working here in ABS-CBN Global Limited. It ain't Heaven, but definitely, it ain't hell either.
Monday, June 14, 2004
How about you?
I know now for certain that the world would be a better place for at least four people I can name if I happen to suddenly die today. No apology, no amount of humility or swallowing of pride can ever change the fact that in these four people's eyes I am the devil incarnate, the reason the world is fucked up and the very thing that makes their life frustrating.
Sorry guys, but I'm not dying any time soon. Live with it. Move on. I mean seriously, you told me to get a grip and move on. I did. I changed. Why do you still bad-mouth me to people we mutually know? Why do you still look at me as someone so evil? Why must you always paint me as the one who did nothing good?
Why can't you just realise people do change. And some people just want to get along better now? What makes you think you're so much better than me when you did your share of mistakes and I forgave you for them?
I know now for certain that the world would be a better place for at least four people I can name if I happen to suddenly die today. No apology, no amount of humility or swallowing of pride can ever change the fact that in these four people's eyes I am the devil incarnate, the reason the world is fucked up and the very thing that makes their life frustrating.
Sorry guys, but I'm not dying any time soon. Live with it. Move on. I mean seriously, you told me to get a grip and move on. I did. I changed. Why do you still bad-mouth me to people we mutually know? Why do you still look at me as someone so evil? Why must you always paint me as the one who did nothing good?
Why can't you just realise people do change. And some people just want to get along better now? What makes you think you're so much better than me when you did your share of mistakes and I forgave you for them?
Saturday, June 12, 2004
SIGLO: Passion entry almost done
Just one and a half page to go... and the coloring.
Argh... I really feel bad about my work. Parang hindi pang level ng Siglo. I mean, god, I got to peek at some of the other people involved featured in Dean's blog. Grabe... nakaka-hiya. Maybe I should stick to indie stuff.
Just one and a half page to go... and the coloring.
Argh... I really feel bad about my work. Parang hindi pang level ng Siglo. I mean, god, I got to peek at some of the other people involved featured in Dean's blog. Grabe... nakaka-hiya. Maybe I should stick to indie stuff.
I Give Up
impromptu train-of-thought script
"Maybe it has always been the case of overly-high expectations. Or maybe they were sound expectations, but never truly reachable. Or maybe it was you? Or maybe it was me? All I know is, I give up. I give up waking each morning and expecting to see you smiling at me. I give up getting dressed and hoping you'd walk up to me from behind and embrace me between a tangle of clothes. I give up taking long showers and waiting for you to join me. I give up all those times I look forward to sharing a passionate kiss, or a lustful animal round of sex that used to happen again and again and again. I give up believing I can be more important than your phone, your friends, your computer or your work. I give up the belief that you can read how hard it has been for me to try and hide the fact I need you to need me more. I give up.. because there's nothing else left to do. I already gave everything I could and nothing has changed in the end."
What do you think? Pang movie? Pang play? Pang comic version of The Hours? hehehe.
Sarap mag-release ng angst. I'm starting to remember what it felt like to be a poet/writer 24/7.
impromptu train-of-thought script
"Maybe it has always been the case of overly-high expectations. Or maybe they were sound expectations, but never truly reachable. Or maybe it was you? Or maybe it was me? All I know is, I give up. I give up waking each morning and expecting to see you smiling at me. I give up getting dressed and hoping you'd walk up to me from behind and embrace me between a tangle of clothes. I give up taking long showers and waiting for you to join me. I give up all those times I look forward to sharing a passionate kiss, or a lustful animal round of sex that used to happen again and again and again. I give up believing I can be more important than your phone, your friends, your computer or your work. I give up the belief that you can read how hard it has been for me to try and hide the fact I need you to need me more. I give up.. because there's nothing else left to do. I already gave everything I could and nothing has changed in the end."
What do you think? Pang movie? Pang play? Pang comic version of The Hours? hehehe.
Sarap mag-release ng angst. I'm starting to remember what it felt like to be a poet/writer 24/7.
Friday, June 11, 2004
FINALLY SOMETHING GOOD FROM WORK
Much to my surprise, my boss called me earlier into her cubicle and informed me that the powers that be at work have decided that I was deserving of some... bonuses... for all the efforts I have placed in work these past few months. I have been promoted to Advertising Graphics and Design Manager, earning approximately Php56,000 a month, net, and now have a car loan, housing loan, full medical plan and even stock options available. I am now on equal footing with my boss (well, I really should start getting used to calling her my *former* boss) and I will have five people under me to order around and "train."
Not.
I just don't have to go to work at all tomorrow.
Haaaay salamat... I can sleep.
Then game.
And regain some brain cells.
See you around!
Much to my surprise, my boss called me earlier into her cubicle and informed me that the powers that be at work have decided that I was deserving of some... bonuses... for all the efforts I have placed in work these past few months. I have been promoted to Advertising Graphics and Design Manager, earning approximately Php56,000 a month, net, and now have a car loan, housing loan, full medical plan and even stock options available. I am now on equal footing with my boss (well, I really should start getting used to calling her my *former* boss) and I will have five people under me to order around and "train."
Not.
I just don't have to go to work at all tomorrow.
Haaaay salamat... I can sleep.
Then game.
And regain some brain cells.
See you around!
Highs and Lows
High: Got mail from Budjette and THE David Hontiveros. They really liked my script for the Alamat anthology coming up. And I was really happy to learn David really got a grasp of what I had in mind.
Low: Oliver has backed out in doing the art chores. Too busy with stuff, I guess.
High: Finished the damn invitations, the posters and the e-mail announcement for the Service Awards.
Low: Still have to go friggin out and look for chairs, and a cloth backdrop for the fucking stage. And them stupid ribbons.
High: It is a Friday
Low: I might work tomorrow A.M.
High: I have my health.
Low: I don't have a life.
Well, maybe that last one is more dramatic license than anything, but right now, it really feels that way. Why is it the people who care for you the most are the ones who aren't trying to keep in touch as much as you would think.
High: Got mail from Budjette and THE David Hontiveros. They really liked my script for the Alamat anthology coming up. And I was really happy to learn David really got a grasp of what I had in mind.
Low: Oliver has backed out in doing the art chores. Too busy with stuff, I guess.
High: Finished the damn invitations, the posters and the e-mail announcement for the Service Awards.
Low: Still have to go friggin out and look for chairs, and a cloth backdrop for the fucking stage. And them stupid ribbons.
High: It is a Friday
Low: I might work tomorrow A.M.
High: I have my health.
Low: I don't have a life.
Well, maybe that last one is more dramatic license than anything, but right now, it really feels that way. Why is it the people who care for you the most are the ones who aren't trying to keep in touch as much as you would think.
Early Morning Song
Not Coming Home
When you refuse me
You confuse me
What makes you think I'll let you in again
Think again my friend
Go on misuse me and abuse me
I'll come out stronger in the end
And does it make you sad
To find yourself alone
And does it make you mad
To find that I have grown
I'll bet it hurts so bad
To see the strength that I have shown
When you answer the door pick up the phone
You wont find me cause I'm not coming home
You do not know how much this hurts me
To say these things that I don't want to say
But have to say them anyway
I would do anything to end your suffering
But you would rather walk away
[x2]
And does it make you sad
To find yourself alone
And does it make you mad
To find that I have grown
I'll bet it hurts so bad
To see the strength that I have shown
When you answer the door pick up the phone
You wont find me cause I'm not coming home
[x2]
When you answer the door pick up the phone
You wont find me cause I'm not coming home
by Maroon 5
Not Coming Home
When you refuse me
You confuse me
What makes you think I'll let you in again
Think again my friend
Go on misuse me and abuse me
I'll come out stronger in the end
And does it make you sad
To find yourself alone
And does it make you mad
To find that I have grown
I'll bet it hurts so bad
To see the strength that I have shown
When you answer the door pick up the phone
You wont find me cause I'm not coming home
You do not know how much this hurts me
To say these things that I don't want to say
But have to say them anyway
I would do anything to end your suffering
But you would rather walk away
[x2]
And does it make you sad
To find yourself alone
And does it make you mad
To find that I have grown
I'll bet it hurts so bad
To see the strength that I have shown
When you answer the door pick up the phone
You wont find me cause I'm not coming home
[x2]
When you answer the door pick up the phone
You wont find me cause I'm not coming home
by Maroon 5
YAY!
After probably clicking the NEW POST button over twenty times today, I finally can post a new post.
What can I say... work is still hell, the new computer Seth set up for me is going well, although the DSL service is fucked up. I can't access Macromedia.com, Apple.com, or even get a fucking Yahoo! game to work. Almost 80% of the links I click other than Yahoo and Google itself don't work unless I press Refresh or restart either the browser itself or the computer. I totally forgot to find some way to back up my Favorites nor did I save a back-up copy of my Photoshop files. And lastly, Priston Tale keeps getting a "cannot connect to server" error.
So all in all, I got a great faster new computer.
And lots of other things that seem intent on ruining my mood.
In an attempt to lighten things up though, here's a 1.2MB gif file made by my officemate Joey. Do wait for it to fully load before you view it. Its best once its completely up and running. Page here. Does any one know how to get the file size of this thing smaller? (ignore this. see above post)
After probably clicking the NEW POST button over twenty times today, I finally can post a new post.
What can I say... work is still hell, the new computer Seth set up for me is going well, although the DSL service is fucked up. I can't access Macromedia.com, Apple.com, or even get a fucking Yahoo! game to work. Almost 80% of the links I click other than Yahoo and Google itself don't work unless I press Refresh or restart either the browser itself or the computer. I totally forgot to find some way to back up my Favorites nor did I save a back-up copy of my Photoshop files. And lastly, Priston Tale keeps getting a "cannot connect to server" error.
So all in all, I got a great faster new computer.
And lots of other things that seem intent on ruining my mood.
In an attempt to lighten things up though, here's a 1.2MB gif file made by my officemate Joey. Do wait for it to fully load before you view it. Its best once its completely up and running. Page here. Does any one know how to get the file size of this thing smaller? (ignore this. see above post)
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
Scenario 2:
You have accomplished pretty much everything except the invitations now. You have been given the go signal to accomplish them. They are due for distribution on Thursday. It is Tuesday and you realise that tomorrow you will probably not go home any time early to accomplish all your necessary work. You finalise everything else you can do for the day and suddenly you receive an e-mail stating, "Just to remind you, you have to create the ribbons for the awardees okay?".
And you stop and realise there has not been any mention of any ribbons from the time the project began til today.
And you realise that they will not buy any of the necessary materials to create the ribbons.
And you realise you have never fucking created a fucking ribbon in your entire life.
And you realise you have no choice but to manage it anyway, along with the workload that is enough for three people to handle at the same time.
What do you do?
Me... I'm choosing to remember this incident as grounds for expecting a promotion. Add to this the fact that again (I sort of remember someone telling me once lang daw) I will have to handle production work since there aren't enough producers to do the job. Jr. Graphics Artist who Art Directs, Produces and handles some Managerial duties. Bigyan ninyo naman ako ng promotion o.
You have accomplished pretty much everything except the invitations now. You have been given the go signal to accomplish them. They are due for distribution on Thursday. It is Tuesday and you realise that tomorrow you will probably not go home any time early to accomplish all your necessary work. You finalise everything else you can do for the day and suddenly you receive an e-mail stating, "Just to remind you, you have to create the ribbons for the awardees okay?".
And you stop and realise there has not been any mention of any ribbons from the time the project began til today.
And you realise that they will not buy any of the necessary materials to create the ribbons.
And you realise you have never fucking created a fucking ribbon in your entire life.
And you realise you have no choice but to manage it anyway, along with the workload that is enough for three people to handle at the same time.
What do you do?
Me... I'm choosing to remember this incident as grounds for expecting a promotion. Add to this the fact that again (I sort of remember someone telling me once lang daw) I will have to handle production work since there aren't enough producers to do the job. Jr. Graphics Artist who Art Directs, Produces and handles some Managerial duties. Bigyan ninyo naman ako ng promotion o.
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
Scenario: 1
You are tasked to handle creating the plaques, a gold pendant design, 20 invitations, the stage design and the event logo for an upcoming major event in the workplace of your occupation. You are given Php5,000 to handle all tasks. The 20 invitations must be done by hand since there is not enough budget to have them professionally printed. Among those who shall receive the invitations are the Chairperson of the company you work for, as well as other luminaries who could easily have you removed from your workplace with a nod of their head, regardless of what labor unions claim.
You have accomplished the plaque designs, the pendant design, and have begun working on the invitations and the logo. You have to accomplish everything else within the next 48 hours.
And today, the powers that be inform you that your work is all on-hold. That the event schedule has been shifted to three days earlier. That the plaques and the pendant are ALREADY being created by the people you have contracted to etch, design, etc them. And that there is still a distinct possibility the whole event shall be cancelled and instead done next year with a bigger budget and a greater scope.
But they won't finalise that until tomorrow before lunch.
What do you do?
Me. I'm going home. Bahala na. Bukas na lang I guess.
You are tasked to handle creating the plaques, a gold pendant design, 20 invitations, the stage design and the event logo for an upcoming major event in the workplace of your occupation. You are given Php5,000 to handle all tasks. The 20 invitations must be done by hand since there is not enough budget to have them professionally printed. Among those who shall receive the invitations are the Chairperson of the company you work for, as well as other luminaries who could easily have you removed from your workplace with a nod of their head, regardless of what labor unions claim.
You have accomplished the plaque designs, the pendant design, and have begun working on the invitations and the logo. You have to accomplish everything else within the next 48 hours.
And today, the powers that be inform you that your work is all on-hold. That the event schedule has been shifted to three days earlier. That the plaques and the pendant are ALREADY being created by the people you have contracted to etch, design, etc them. And that there is still a distinct possibility the whole event shall be cancelled and instead done next year with a bigger budget and a greater scope.
But they won't finalise that until tomorrow before lunch.
What do you do?
Me. I'm going home. Bahala na. Bukas na lang I guess.
I knew it
And so it begins. Woke up late today. Body not feeling up to stuff. Maybe it was the fact I stood in the rain trying to use a damned key that didn't seem to work on a fucked up lock for nearly 15 minutes yesterday night. Or maybe its the biological clock ticking fully aware that the TV Guide week has begun, hence the unconcious desire to be unable to go to work? Or maybe even it has to do with the coming alignment of celestial deities who have come to a conclusion that the only way to save my life for complete and utter destruction is to cause me to oversleep to dreams of a role-playing game convention held in my grandmother's house with a few friends prepping to play something called the Peanut. Yes, it is strange. I don't know what the fuck it means. Or what kind of game called Peanut could be. One thing I do remember about it in the dream is that it required a huge table, around ten chairs, a computer (for video clips)and a few handfuls of dice.
Gah, I'm late. (Though technically, I ain't since I'm under a weekly flexi-time schedule.)
Gotta go get ready for work.
Later folks.
And so it begins. Woke up late today. Body not feeling up to stuff. Maybe it was the fact I stood in the rain trying to use a damned key that didn't seem to work on a fucked up lock for nearly 15 minutes yesterday night. Or maybe its the biological clock ticking fully aware that the TV Guide week has begun, hence the unconcious desire to be unable to go to work? Or maybe even it has to do with the coming alignment of celestial deities who have come to a conclusion that the only way to save my life for complete and utter destruction is to cause me to oversleep to dreams of a role-playing game convention held in my grandmother's house with a few friends prepping to play something called the Peanut. Yes, it is strange. I don't know what the fuck it means. Or what kind of game called Peanut could be. One thing I do remember about it in the dream is that it required a huge table, around ten chairs, a computer (for video clips)and a few handfuls of dice.
Gah, I'm late. (Though technically, I ain't since I'm under a weekly flexi-time schedule.)
Gotta go get ready for work.
Later folks.
Monday, June 07, 2004
Monday and Moisture
It is raining again. Rain, rain, rain, the droplets fall like tears from all the broken hearts left unspoken and kept hidden. There are times I find myself thinking maybe someone up there realises that too many people have hidden painful memories and moments in their hearts, knowing too well to expose such pains would hurt others more than themselves.... and maybe, just maybe, it was then that rain began to exist.
The heavens cry for you, because you cannot let anyone else do so.
Poetic moments aside, it is supposedly signal number one today over Metro Manila. Typically, this results with horrible traffic jams (maybe drivers have an unconscious complusion to count each and every drop that hits their windshield?) and diffifult morning bathing. I mean, god, I don't think my nipples ever got this perky before just for a shower!
Oh, mga magaling mag-imagine diyan... tama na!
:-P
It is a good morning though. Woke earlier than usual and felt more refreshed than I anticipated. Got to work early enough to be able to say I'm starting to get back in the groove. Have loads of work coming and ... crap. Suddenly I think I realise why everything is so fucking nice right now.
Its the dreaded TV Guide this week.
The calm before the storm indeed.
The calm before the storm.
It is raining again. Rain, rain, rain, the droplets fall like tears from all the broken hearts left unspoken and kept hidden. There are times I find myself thinking maybe someone up there realises that too many people have hidden painful memories and moments in their hearts, knowing too well to expose such pains would hurt others more than themselves.... and maybe, just maybe, it was then that rain began to exist.
The heavens cry for you, because you cannot let anyone else do so.
Poetic moments aside, it is supposedly signal number one today over Metro Manila. Typically, this results with horrible traffic jams (maybe drivers have an unconscious complusion to count each and every drop that hits their windshield?) and diffifult morning bathing. I mean, god, I don't think my nipples ever got this perky before just for a shower!
Oh, mga magaling mag-imagine diyan... tama na!
:-P
It is a good morning though. Woke earlier than usual and felt more refreshed than I anticipated. Got to work early enough to be able to say I'm starting to get back in the groove. Have loads of work coming and ... crap. Suddenly I think I realise why everything is so fucking nice right now.
Its the dreaded TV Guide this week.
The calm before the storm indeed.
The calm before the storm.
Sunday, June 06, 2004
I need a massage
Body feels like a few elephants danced the tango while I was sleeping. But then again, I barely got enough sleep today. Ran another Changeling: The Dreaming session with Seth and Sam as my primary players, until Aldwin came to grace us with his presence. Thankfully, the Gods of Call-Center Schedules had chosen to grant him free time on his weekends! Sadly, neither Erwin nor Marco could make it (again) and adding to the sadness was the fact that it was Marco's birthday this weekend.
Though the game ended earlier than usual, a quick breakfast allowed us to recuperate some lost strength before heading for bed. I slept a fitful rest with a strange dream involving naked basketball players, a gigantic red tent and a rising tide of water; don't ask me for details for none seem to have been retained in my brain. I guess that's for the best.
Woke around 12:02 noon to the voice of Bebie, our house help who has been taking care of me since I was one, and got dressed for a lunch with the family at Pasay. One of my Uncles, Joe, is here for a few days you see. They were the kind family who permitted me to squat on their residence while I was in the United States.
Headed home by four to fix my mom's computer. She needed to get her CD-burner running, MSOffice and Adobe Pagemaker installed, as well as make sure other things were in order. Checked her laptop too which had a busted battery and failed to fix it. And finally, packed to head back here to San Juan for the rest of the evening.
The trip was a long one, with a torrent of rain marking the night as miserable. Add to that the fact that the newly installed lock at the gate somehow has been tampered with and none of the new keys we have had duplicated for it work anymore...
I guess one shouldn't complain.
But damn it, it helps me feel better.
Body feels like a few elephants danced the tango while I was sleeping. But then again, I barely got enough sleep today. Ran another Changeling: The Dreaming session with Seth and Sam as my primary players, until Aldwin came to grace us with his presence. Thankfully, the Gods of Call-Center Schedules had chosen to grant him free time on his weekends! Sadly, neither Erwin nor Marco could make it (again) and adding to the sadness was the fact that it was Marco's birthday this weekend.
Though the game ended earlier than usual, a quick breakfast allowed us to recuperate some lost strength before heading for bed. I slept a fitful rest with a strange dream involving naked basketball players, a gigantic red tent and a rising tide of water; don't ask me for details for none seem to have been retained in my brain. I guess that's for the best.
Woke around 12:02 noon to the voice of Bebie, our house help who has been taking care of me since I was one, and got dressed for a lunch with the family at Pasay. One of my Uncles, Joe, is here for a few days you see. They were the kind family who permitted me to squat on their residence while I was in the United States.
Headed home by four to fix my mom's computer. She needed to get her CD-burner running, MSOffice and Adobe Pagemaker installed, as well as make sure other things were in order. Checked her laptop too which had a busted battery and failed to fix it. And finally, packed to head back here to San Juan for the rest of the evening.
The trip was a long one, with a torrent of rain marking the night as miserable. Add to that the fact that the newly installed lock at the gate somehow has been tampered with and none of the new keys we have had duplicated for it work anymore...
I guess one shouldn't complain.
But damn it, it helps me feel better.
Saturday, June 05, 2004
Finally level 10 man!
Had a really fun time playing Priston Tale last night. Made a few parties and helped some guys gain some weapons and experience, which is funny since last night was practically my first time to play the game. Special thanks to Thedanishgod, Terra McBassman, Ellendil, and a few others whose names I forgot for making that a fun night. I mean, really! Finding ourselves lost as some point was a freaking moment to be remembered with shivers! And getting surrounded by those monstrous trees, attacking street lights and large-capped boggarts was like a page straight out of Changeling: the Dreaming!
Back at work
Yep. I am typing this while at work. The powers that be decided it would be best for me to do the work over the weekend. Snarf.. I tell you... snarf...
Had a really fun time playing Priston Tale last night. Made a few parties and helped some guys gain some weapons and experience, which is funny since last night was practically my first time to play the game. Special thanks to Thedanishgod, Terra McBassman, Ellendil, and a few others whose names I forgot for making that a fun night. I mean, really! Finding ourselves lost as some point was a freaking moment to be remembered with shivers! And getting surrounded by those monstrous trees, attacking street lights and large-capped boggarts was like a page straight out of Changeling: the Dreaming!
Back at work
Yep. I am typing this while at work. The powers that be decided it would be best for me to do the work over the weekend. Snarf.. I tell you... snarf...
Friday, June 04, 2004
Spoke too soon
Have to go back to work tomorrow.
Some jerk off in some other country failed to meet a committed deadline. Hence, they're sending the files we needed today TOMORROW instead. Since eveyrone else in this freaking company wants to avoid a three day delay (which happens if they respect my time, and let me rest on the weekend), I have to come in tomorrow and work.
I tell you.
If I were a mutant...
..this company would be the first one to go.
Have to go back to work tomorrow.
Some jerk off in some other country failed to meet a committed deadline. Hence, they're sending the files we needed today TOMORROW instead. Since eveyrone else in this freaking company wants to avoid a three day delay (which happens if they respect my time, and let me rest on the weekend), I have to come in tomorrow and work.
I tell you.
If I were a mutant...
..this company would be the first one to go.
Friday na pala!
I tell you. Stress and work can be terribly bed-partners. Would you believe that I only learned yesterday after watching Harry Potter: Prisoner of Azkaban that the next day (meaning today) was going to already be FRIDAY? Sheesh! I guess having that 23 hour shoot, the 2-day out-of-town excursion and the hectic need to catch up on other projects frazzled my body clock.
Things are getting a tad nicer for me on the horizon, I guess. Although it really is too soon to tell for certain, there seem to be less clouds blocking my view of the coming new day. Work load is taking a wonderful breather (although I can only worry for how long) and though I know the shit is going to hit the fan, I cannot help but be happy to feel that today is a good day. Maybe its a Friday-moment sort of thing?
Word play
Some words that have more meaning than most realise:
Angel, X, Radio, Piglet, Pee Pee, Gypsy, Sheryl, Tomato
SIGLO still being finished
Argh! Got around three more pages to draw, and almost all of them to color within the next few days! I know.. I know.. I am terribly late. Well, not really, but it feels that way. Ang hirap kasi bigyan ng justice yung work ni Quark Henares eh. Can't help but still feel as if his work should be illustrated by someone with more clout... like Carl or maybe even Gerry. But me? Nyek...
DILIMAN 13
Will be working on this once SIGLO: Passion is done. Promise! I know marami kayong mga fans (ha! wish ko lang) who are still anxiously awaiting for the next installment. Sobrang sorry talaga! It will come I promise!
Same with
BANGUNGOT
Which I plan to continue once DILIMAN 13 naman is done.
Hay....
The Pool
Tori Amos
One with her hands open
"don't be afraid" she said
"no one will know it, just you and me"
And when it's over
I'll go back
I tell you. Stress and work can be terribly bed-partners. Would you believe that I only learned yesterday after watching Harry Potter: Prisoner of Azkaban that the next day (meaning today) was going to already be FRIDAY? Sheesh! I guess having that 23 hour shoot, the 2-day out-of-town excursion and the hectic need to catch up on other projects frazzled my body clock.
Things are getting a tad nicer for me on the horizon, I guess. Although it really is too soon to tell for certain, there seem to be less clouds blocking my view of the coming new day. Work load is taking a wonderful breather (although I can only worry for how long) and though I know the shit is going to hit the fan, I cannot help but be happy to feel that today is a good day. Maybe its a Friday-moment sort of thing?
Word play
Some words that have more meaning than most realise:
Angel, X, Radio, Piglet, Pee Pee, Gypsy, Sheryl, Tomato
SIGLO still being finished
Argh! Got around three more pages to draw, and almost all of them to color within the next few days! I know.. I know.. I am terribly late. Well, not really, but it feels that way. Ang hirap kasi bigyan ng justice yung work ni Quark Henares eh. Can't help but still feel as if his work should be illustrated by someone with more clout... like Carl or maybe even Gerry. But me? Nyek...
DILIMAN 13
Will be working on this once SIGLO: Passion is done. Promise! I know marami kayong mga fans (ha! wish ko lang) who are still anxiously awaiting for the next installment. Sobrang sorry talaga! It will come I promise!
Same with
BANGUNGOT
Which I plan to continue once DILIMAN 13 naman is done.
Hay....
The Pool
Tori Amos
One with her hands open
"don't be afraid" she said
"no one will know it, just you and me"
And when it's over
I'll go back
Good Things Today
First, finally got to watch HARRY POTTER AND THE PRISONER OF AZKABAN. What can I say, it was unnerving at first to realise how much older the kids have become. Followed by a slight irked sensation of seeing the new Albus Dumbledore. But after the first twenty minutes, everything just started to feel like they were all in the right place. I loved this movie more than the first two simply because it feels darker and more... plausible than the first two. Gary Oldman steals the show as always and I gotta find out why Dave McKean was in the credits!
Second, found out online that PENGEL: Quest for Color has a sequel! For those who aren't that much aware, PENGEL is a revolutionary spin on the monster-pet games which were popularized by Pokemon and Monster Rancher. In PENGEL, you create literally doodles that come to life as three-dimensional critters with powers, magic and the like. Well, trust me, as simple as the combat system is and as shallow as the premise is, the game is very addictive. And fun! Well, the sequel has a website online but damn it I cannot understand a single word of it. I can deduce from the pics though that the customization and ability to draw your doodles has gotten far far much better! I can't wait!
Then, there's Priston Tale which looks like a really good MMORPG! I know, I know, as defiant as I was towards Ragnarok, this game catches my attention more perhaps due to the more... well-thought-out process of levelling up and equipment. And perhaps its because the gamers in it seem more sensible than the majority of jologs in Ragnarok.
Finally..
its Friday tomorrow.
'Nuff said.
First, finally got to watch HARRY POTTER AND THE PRISONER OF AZKABAN. What can I say, it was unnerving at first to realise how much older the kids have become. Followed by a slight irked sensation of seeing the new Albus Dumbledore. But after the first twenty minutes, everything just started to feel like they were all in the right place. I loved this movie more than the first two simply because it feels darker and more... plausible than the first two. Gary Oldman steals the show as always and I gotta find out why Dave McKean was in the credits!
Second, found out online that PENGEL: Quest for Color has a sequel! For those who aren't that much aware, PENGEL is a revolutionary spin on the monster-pet games which were popularized by Pokemon and Monster Rancher. In PENGEL, you create literally doodles that come to life as three-dimensional critters with powers, magic and the like. Well, trust me, as simple as the combat system is and as shallow as the premise is, the game is very addictive. And fun! Well, the sequel has a website online but damn it I cannot understand a single word of it. I can deduce from the pics though that the customization and ability to draw your doodles has gotten far far much better! I can't wait!
Then, there's Priston Tale which looks like a really good MMORPG! I know, I know, as defiant as I was towards Ragnarok, this game catches my attention more perhaps due to the more... well-thought-out process of levelling up and equipment. And perhaps its because the gamers in it seem more sensible than the majority of jologs in Ragnarok.
Finally..
its Friday tomorrow.
'Nuff said.
Thursday, June 03, 2004
BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
My most sincere Birthday wishes to Popay's Mom, Ruby who celebrates her birthday this 2nd of June. I apologise for not being able to greet that very day since I was out of town yesterday at Cavite for a team-buidling seminar. I fondly remember her for those times that I, Tom, Rex, Bryan, Dave and someone else whom I cannot remember would meet up at Popay's house for an Art Jam session and just have fun creating our little masterpieces.
And yes, though I tend to hate dogs (who also tend to hate me back), here's a pic of her favorite doggie, Bobbie, who's a Border Collie. Again HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
My most sincere Birthday wishes to Popay's Mom, Ruby who celebrates her birthday this 2nd of June. I apologise for not being able to greet that very day since I was out of town yesterday at Cavite for a team-buidling seminar. I fondly remember her for those times that I, Tom, Rex, Bryan, Dave and someone else whom I cannot remember would meet up at Popay's house for an Art Jam session and just have fun creating our little masterpieces.
And yes, though I tend to hate dogs (who also tend to hate me back), here's a pic of her favorite doggie, Bobbie, who's a Border Collie. Again HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
Back at last!
It has been one heck of an incredible two days; Exhausting, immersive, and very contraversial in its own way! Was at the teambuilding thing at Cavite for the last two days and I can only stare at my reflection in the mirror and ponder on how I kept going all that time. Straight from a 21 hour-long shoot with Piolo and Tuesday, we left with the rest of ABS-CBN Global to be part of the seminar. From what started as funny ice-breakers (a 25 item long test with questions like "Someone who uses the tuldok tuldok system" to see if you know the group well, to crossing the room in a unique way no one else in the whole group has done so before) to out door activities (like searching for a single twig of wood hidden within the garden grounds) and climaxing with an incredible challenge to build a raft in one hour with one saw, ten bamboo poles, 14 plastic containers and a two balls of rope. Our group, in our opinion, built the most effective raft, considering ours never even sank enough for the team to be partially submerged in water during the whole length of traversing 100 feet to get to the flag, and another 100 feet to get back.
And that was just the team building!
Following that was a dose of videoke singing, some partying and drinking, and the most interesting Truth or Dare game that will have to remain greatly censored out of respect to those in the game. Let's just say I got to kiss a crush on the shoulder, receive two kisses from that person back (again on the shoulders) and learned that someone in the group likes me, hates me, and a large number of them believed I was definitely not "Holier Than Thou" the way one perceived me!
Sobrang saya I tell you! The travel times were long and terribly draining but still.. its okay I guess. I only wish there were more liquids in the event. Been parched ever since I learned that a single Coke in can costs 80 pesos there!
My thanks to Seth, Zeki and Kervin for checking up on me while I was out. I guess they were afraid I'd get either raped or sold to the Abu Sayyaf for my brains or something. Hehehehe. Special child talaga ako.
It has been one heck of an incredible two days; Exhausting, immersive, and very contraversial in its own way! Was at the teambuilding thing at Cavite for the last two days and I can only stare at my reflection in the mirror and ponder on how I kept going all that time. Straight from a 21 hour-long shoot with Piolo and Tuesday, we left with the rest of ABS-CBN Global to be part of the seminar. From what started as funny ice-breakers (a 25 item long test with questions like "Someone who uses the tuldok tuldok system" to see if you know the group well, to crossing the room in a unique way no one else in the whole group has done so before) to out door activities (like searching for a single twig of wood hidden within the garden grounds) and climaxing with an incredible challenge to build a raft in one hour with one saw, ten bamboo poles, 14 plastic containers and a two balls of rope. Our group, in our opinion, built the most effective raft, considering ours never even sank enough for the team to be partially submerged in water during the whole length of traversing 100 feet to get to the flag, and another 100 feet to get back.
And that was just the team building!
Following that was a dose of videoke singing, some partying and drinking, and the most interesting Truth or Dare game that will have to remain greatly censored out of respect to those in the game. Let's just say I got to kiss a crush on the shoulder, receive two kisses from that person back (again on the shoulders) and learned that someone in the group likes me, hates me, and a large number of them believed I was definitely not "Holier Than Thou" the way one perceived me!
Sobrang saya I tell you! The travel times were long and terribly draining but still.. its okay I guess. I only wish there were more liquids in the event. Been parched ever since I learned that a single Coke in can costs 80 pesos there!
My thanks to Seth, Zeki and Kervin for checking up on me while I was out. I guess they were afraid I'd get either raped or sold to the Abu Sayyaf for my brains or something. Hehehehe. Special child talaga ako.
Tuesday, June 01, 2004
It is 5:27a.m.
I am leaving for Cavite in a few minutes. (Although I suspect a few minutes translates to an hour and a half later) Tis time for a work-related Team Building seminar and I have not had any sleep. The activity is supposed to be at a beach somewhere down south and I can only wish the trip will be smooth and peaceful enough for me to get some sleep. Or a nap. Or something.
Feet hurt like hell... fucking toes gone red from the stress of walking around all day. And I even think my sole and ankle is swollen.
As if I wasn't in enough pain.
See you in two days!
I am leaving for Cavite in a few minutes. (Although I suspect a few minutes translates to an hour and a half later) Tis time for a work-related Team Building seminar and I have not had any sleep. The activity is supposed to be at a beach somewhere down south and I can only wish the trip will be smooth and peaceful enough for me to get some sleep. Or a nap. Or something.
Feet hurt like hell... fucking toes gone red from the stress of walking around all day. And I even think my sole and ankle is swollen.
As if I wasn't in enough pain.
See you in two days!
PIOLO and TUESDAY
Yes. I know it is a Monday. But that's not what I meant.
Had a shoot today with PIOLO PASCUAL and TUESDAY VARGAS, So far, is going well. Well, the shoot with the talents just ended. The rest of the shoot with the products, dolls, and other items has yet to happen.
Gasp..
It's already 1:17a.m.!
And I have a teambuilding seminar at 5:30a.m. which is to be held out of town!
Eto na naman...
Yes. I know it is a Monday. But that's not what I meant.
Had a shoot today with PIOLO PASCUAL and TUESDAY VARGAS, So far, is going well. Well, the shoot with the talents just ended. The rest of the shoot with the products, dolls, and other items has yet to happen.
Gasp..
It's already 1:17a.m.!
And I have a teambuilding seminar at 5:30a.m. which is to be held out of town!
Eto na naman...
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