Can't get any sleep today
Not feeling too well I guess.
Cold.
Anyway, something freaky to keep you all occupied.
http://amgemscafe.com/bingotheclowno/
Be warned, it is a huge download but damn, well worth the watch. Disturbingly delicious. Creepy and yet chaste.
"Hi Bingo!"
Thursday, May 27, 2004
Found this on Jay's blog
It is interesting how the variety of definitions my name creates seem to always have something to do with laugher and insanity.
It is interesting how the variety of definitions my name creates seem to always have something to do with laugher and insanity.
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
Stuck at home
With a touch of what may be a prelude to sickness. Well, maybe not. I dunno. With the work I've been tackling, it seems like I get more and more likely to get sick. I really need a good dose of TLC. Waah.... the longing to be pampered and physically intimate. The longing to sleep in a bed that ain't empty on one side.
Comics
Still working on the SIGLO pages. The deadline is in less than three weeks and I've barely hit the half-way mark. It is just so much harder to do comic pages when you know there are editors who'll look at it and a writer who wrote it. When they're totally personal comics, you pretty much do it the way you feel like it. But when others come into play, you can't help but feel... pressured into doing much better.
I really hope I do enough.
Too bad I can't do some pages today while stuck at home though. Left my comic stuff at the office. Groan... feel the bug to sketch some new pages pa naman. Sayang... story of my life.
Priston Tale
Still downloading the huge 528MB download for Priston Tale a MMORPG which looks much more mature and intersting than Ragnarok. I really despise Ragnarok for its annoying effect on the table-top gaming community. And for its idiotic system of learning to sit when you hit level four. And for its 90% jologs community with more than half of that same said community online in hopes to score some sex. The game itself, I heard, can be catchy, but I frankly don't think its for me. My best wishes to all you fanatics of the game, but don't expect me to be there anytime soon.
What I would really really love? A MMORPG based on Final Fantasy Tactics!
With a touch of what may be a prelude to sickness. Well, maybe not. I dunno. With the work I've been tackling, it seems like I get more and more likely to get sick. I really need a good dose of TLC. Waah.... the longing to be pampered and physically intimate. The longing to sleep in a bed that ain't empty on one side.
Comics
Still working on the SIGLO pages. The deadline is in less than three weeks and I've barely hit the half-way mark. It is just so much harder to do comic pages when you know there are editors who'll look at it and a writer who wrote it. When they're totally personal comics, you pretty much do it the way you feel like it. But when others come into play, you can't help but feel... pressured into doing much better.
I really hope I do enough.
Too bad I can't do some pages today while stuck at home though. Left my comic stuff at the office. Groan... feel the bug to sketch some new pages pa naman. Sayang... story of my life.
Priston Tale
Still downloading the huge 528MB download for Priston Tale a MMORPG which looks much more mature and intersting than Ragnarok. I really despise Ragnarok for its annoying effect on the table-top gaming community. And for its idiotic system of learning to sit when you hit level four. And for its 90% jologs community with more than half of that same said community online in hopes to score some sex. The game itself, I heard, can be catchy, but I frankly don't think its for me. My best wishes to all you fanatics of the game, but don't expect me to be there anytime soon.
What I would really really love? A MMORPG based on Final Fantasy Tactics!
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
Spider-Man daw ako
Fuck you. What do you know about who I really am? Fuck the community and its name-calling and its labels. Fuck the annoying need of some people to destroy another's reputation in order to feel better about themselves.
Fuck you.
And to those who know this doesn't apply to them, thank you for being civil enough to try and get to know a person rather than just believe what fucking rumors and name-calling propaganda obviously inept freaks spread about others.
Fuck you. What do you know about who I really am? Fuck the community and its name-calling and its labels. Fuck the annoying need of some people to destroy another's reputation in order to feel better about themselves.
Fuck you.
And to those who know this doesn't apply to them, thank you for being civil enough to try and get to know a person rather than just believe what fucking rumors and name-calling propaganda obviously inept freaks spread about others.
Monday, May 24, 2004
Gwaaah
Just needed to let out some frustration.
Thank you very much.
The Dark God Travels
Seth, my roommate, is leaving for Hongkong for a quick vacation of sorts. It has been quite some time since I last got to visit Hongkong. I remember back then, it was like the shopping capital of the world. Practically anything you want could be found there. Nowadays, though, with the Philippines itself overflowing with international goods (as well as a host of pirated goods), it ain't easy anymore to think of anything you'd want to get at Hongkong which you can't get here. Well, other than a very valid reason not to be at work for a few days.
Have a safe trip, Seth!
Gaming Grumbles
Everyone seems to be running out of free time to have games. This seems to hold true both in AEGIS, a group which I feel strongly for, and my own gaming troupe. And adding to the annoyance is the fact a large manority of those who are free to game are those whose gaming styles don't mesh with mine.
I tell you, this keeps up and I just might "choose" to outgrow this hobby.
Shrek 2
VERY FUNNY MOVIE.
I tell you. You just HAVE to see it.
To the very least, for the Mission Impossible sequence.
Just needed to let out some frustration.
Thank you very much.
The Dark God Travels
Seth, my roommate, is leaving for Hongkong for a quick vacation of sorts. It has been quite some time since I last got to visit Hongkong. I remember back then, it was like the shopping capital of the world. Practically anything you want could be found there. Nowadays, though, with the Philippines itself overflowing with international goods (as well as a host of pirated goods), it ain't easy anymore to think of anything you'd want to get at Hongkong which you can't get here. Well, other than a very valid reason not to be at work for a few days.
Have a safe trip, Seth!
Gaming Grumbles
Everyone seems to be running out of free time to have games. This seems to hold true both in AEGIS, a group which I feel strongly for, and my own gaming troupe. And adding to the annoyance is the fact a large manority of those who are free to game are those whose gaming styles don't mesh with mine.
I tell you, this keeps up and I just might "choose" to outgrow this hobby.
Shrek 2
VERY FUNNY MOVIE.
I tell you. You just HAVE to see it.
To the very least, for the Mission Impossible sequence.
Saturday, May 22, 2004
Friday, May 21, 2004
Need to release stress.... SING!!!
There you see her
Sitting there across the way
She don't got a lot to say
But there's something about her
And you don't know why
But you're dying to try
You wanna kiss the girl
Yes, you want her
Look at her, you know you do
Possible she wants you to
There is one way to ask her
It don't take a word
Not a single word
Go on and kiss the girl
Sha la la la la, my oh my
Look like the boy too shy
Ain't gonna kiss the girl
Sha la la la, ain't that sad
Ain't it a shame, too bad
He gonna miss the girl
Now's your moment
Floating in a blue lagoon
Boy, you better do it soon
No time will be better
She don't say a word
And she won't say a word
Until you kiss the girl
Sha la la la la, don't be scared
You got the mood prepared
Go on and kiss the girl
Sha la la la la, don't stop now
Don't try to hide it
How you wanna kiss the girl
Sha la la la la, float along
And listen to the song
The song say Kiss the girl
Sha la la la la, the music play
Do what the music say
You gotta kiss the girl
You've gotta kiss the girl
You wanna kiss the girl
You've gotta kiss the girl
Go on and kiss the girl
There you see her
Sitting there across the way
She don't got a lot to say
But there's something about her
And you don't know why
But you're dying to try
You wanna kiss the girl
Yes, you want her
Look at her, you know you do
Possible she wants you to
There is one way to ask her
It don't take a word
Not a single word
Go on and kiss the girl
Sha la la la la, my oh my
Look like the boy too shy
Ain't gonna kiss the girl
Sha la la la, ain't that sad
Ain't it a shame, too bad
He gonna miss the girl
Now's your moment
Floating in a blue lagoon
Boy, you better do it soon
No time will be better
She don't say a word
And she won't say a word
Until you kiss the girl
Sha la la la la, don't be scared
You got the mood prepared
Go on and kiss the girl
Sha la la la la, don't stop now
Don't try to hide it
How you wanna kiss the girl
Sha la la la la, float along
And listen to the song
The song say Kiss the girl
Sha la la la la, the music play
Do what the music say
You gotta kiss the girl
You've gotta kiss the girl
You wanna kiss the girl
You've gotta kiss the girl
Go on and kiss the girl
Finally.. Friday na
Been a very long week. Woke up to the sounds of a videogame Seth just downloaded. He heard about it from his friends yesterday. Highly recommended and all, according to him. Have no idea what it is or what its about but I guess he'll tell me eventually.
Woke early today but don't feel any more excited. I wish I could feel more enthusiastic about things but I just don't feel like there's much to look forward to as of the late. Getting stuck in an emotional rut I guess. Feel like everyone prefers to do their own thing; who needs to have tobie around when you can do it so much better alone, eh?
Punyeta.
Might go out to watch Troy tonight.
Haven't seen a movie in a while so I guess that's a good idea.
Bahala na.
Been a very long week. Woke up to the sounds of a videogame Seth just downloaded. He heard about it from his friends yesterday. Highly recommended and all, according to him. Have no idea what it is or what its about but I guess he'll tell me eventually.
Woke early today but don't feel any more excited. I wish I could feel more enthusiastic about things but I just don't feel like there's much to look forward to as of the late. Getting stuck in an emotional rut I guess. Feel like everyone prefers to do their own thing; who needs to have tobie around when you can do it so much better alone, eh?
Punyeta.
Might go out to watch Troy tonight.
Haven't seen a movie in a while so I guess that's a good idea.
Bahala na.
Thursday, May 20, 2004
End of the week
Finally nearing the end of the week and I have no idea what my weekend plans will really be like. Marco, it turns out, is sick for the second day this week so he isnt't sure if he can play. James is anxiously awaiting for updates on what we're playing tomorrow. Same with Erwin, though he hasn't been texting for updates though. Aldwin is no longer able to join the gang, which really is sad considering he really does add life to the games. So far, only Sam and Seth are for sure available, though neither of them really know yet what we're playing.
Again, it falls upon ME to handle the decision-making.
And again, no matter what I decide upon, there will be those who are disappointed and those who are happy. And finally, no matter what happens, it will be up to be to face the music and take the effort to contact everyone else.
Again.
After numerous times of pleading, complaining, voicing out, echoing and dropping hints to the others that I would appreciate it if someone can help handle the legwork of contacting everyone and finding out whose available for what.
Again.
Somethings never change.
Finally nearing the end of the week and I have no idea what my weekend plans will really be like. Marco, it turns out, is sick for the second day this week so he isnt't sure if he can play. James is anxiously awaiting for updates on what we're playing tomorrow. Same with Erwin, though he hasn't been texting for updates though. Aldwin is no longer able to join the gang, which really is sad considering he really does add life to the games. So far, only Sam and Seth are for sure available, though neither of them really know yet what we're playing.
Again, it falls upon ME to handle the decision-making.
And again, no matter what I decide upon, there will be those who are disappointed and those who are happy. And finally, no matter what happens, it will be up to be to face the music and take the effort to contact everyone else.
Again.
After numerous times of pleading, complaining, voicing out, echoing and dropping hints to the others that I would appreciate it if someone can help handle the legwork of contacting everyone and finding out whose available for what.
Again.
Somethings never change.
Half-way there...
Juggling two commercials, the dreaded monthly TV Guide for Middle East as well as a host of other little required projects all in the span of a few days. So far, I'm alive, which is good, but on a related note, I feel each and every droplet of inspiration dying. Work is just devouring me like a wolf upon a blind, mute, and deaf lamb and I got nothing but my witty banter and my dreams of surviving another gruelling week to keep me going.
That. And my friends.
Maan is back from her short workshop at Mowelfund, which is something I shall be eternally grateful for. With her back at work, some of the heavier jobs on my lap shall be passed to her. She looks nicely rejuvinated, after spending two weeks doing creative work and learning the ropes of handling cinematography. Johnboy, my old college buddy, dropped by to talk some and play Siren. It was fun having the banter we used to toss back and forth back... and it was interesting to realise we used to need beer and lots of gin to keep it going. Chatted about the whereabouts of old friends like Sunshine, Edy, Jowell and Ken. Mused on the achievements of Jemps, Popay and Tappy. College days are really memorable, no matter how bitter-sweet.
Hoping Marco gets back with news on what game we can play this coming weekend. I opted not to text or ask him since I don't want to add pressure to him. I feel helpless, knowing his troubled situation and knowing there is only so much I can do to help. Having been a best friend who'd come to his aid when he needed it... I feel paralyzed knowing things are different now. There are just so much one can do without crossing certain social lines.
Seth is having trouble with his computer. He's a tad cranky, which isn't anything new, but its enough for me to know I should stay out of his way for the time being. No word from Sam nor Aldwin. James is excited for the game like a kid hearing there's going to be a trip to Disneyland. I hope I don't disappoint him though, if Marco opts to play Changeling this weekend. To the very least, I'll make sure the next Orpheus game for him rocks higher than the last one.
The office gang is cool as always. If it weren't for them, I have to admit, I would have left ABS-CBN Global Ltd. a long time ago. There's a big difference between being in a high paying job with total assholes and being in an over-worked low-paying job with really great people whom you know aren't backstabbing sons of bitches and bastards.
Family is staying strong. Though I am a tad worried for my Dad considering his current job in Paranaque might require some major shifts, I am happy he's out of the political mess the Philippines is in. My Mom's been having trouble with the computer I got her again. HP seems to be having a certain lack of adequacy in helping her out. So much for getting the Warranty, eh? At least I know we haven't been wasting loads of money on the repairs. Just a lot of gas and patience. My sister is OJT-ing in McCann Erickson now. I'm proud of her and I do hope she survives the waters there. Ad agencies can be like sharks. My brother and sister-in-law are happy in Los Angeles. He's almost done with his Masters degree and all four of them are having a wonderful time.
It is a good life, I have to admit.
Its not perfect but hey... I'm just too dumb to realise I should be more satisfied with what I got. I guess its hard when you have the tendancy to dream and look at things and see how they can get bigger.
And I know they will.
Juggling two commercials, the dreaded monthly TV Guide for Middle East as well as a host of other little required projects all in the span of a few days. So far, I'm alive, which is good, but on a related note, I feel each and every droplet of inspiration dying. Work is just devouring me like a wolf upon a blind, mute, and deaf lamb and I got nothing but my witty banter and my dreams of surviving another gruelling week to keep me going.
That. And my friends.
Maan is back from her short workshop at Mowelfund, which is something I shall be eternally grateful for. With her back at work, some of the heavier jobs on my lap shall be passed to her. She looks nicely rejuvinated, after spending two weeks doing creative work and learning the ropes of handling cinematography. Johnboy, my old college buddy, dropped by to talk some and play Siren. It was fun having the banter we used to toss back and forth back... and it was interesting to realise we used to need beer and lots of gin to keep it going. Chatted about the whereabouts of old friends like Sunshine, Edy, Jowell and Ken. Mused on the achievements of Jemps, Popay and Tappy. College days are really memorable, no matter how bitter-sweet.
Hoping Marco gets back with news on what game we can play this coming weekend. I opted not to text or ask him since I don't want to add pressure to him. I feel helpless, knowing his troubled situation and knowing there is only so much I can do to help. Having been a best friend who'd come to his aid when he needed it... I feel paralyzed knowing things are different now. There are just so much one can do without crossing certain social lines.
Seth is having trouble with his computer. He's a tad cranky, which isn't anything new, but its enough for me to know I should stay out of his way for the time being. No word from Sam nor Aldwin. James is excited for the game like a kid hearing there's going to be a trip to Disneyland. I hope I don't disappoint him though, if Marco opts to play Changeling this weekend. To the very least, I'll make sure the next Orpheus game for him rocks higher than the last one.
The office gang is cool as always. If it weren't for them, I have to admit, I would have left ABS-CBN Global Ltd. a long time ago. There's a big difference between being in a high paying job with total assholes and being in an over-worked low-paying job with really great people whom you know aren't backstabbing sons of bitches and bastards.
Family is staying strong. Though I am a tad worried for my Dad considering his current job in Paranaque might require some major shifts, I am happy he's out of the political mess the Philippines is in. My Mom's been having trouble with the computer I got her again. HP seems to be having a certain lack of adequacy in helping her out. So much for getting the Warranty, eh? At least I know we haven't been wasting loads of money on the repairs. Just a lot of gas and patience. My sister is OJT-ing in McCann Erickson now. I'm proud of her and I do hope she survives the waters there. Ad agencies can be like sharks. My brother and sister-in-law are happy in Los Angeles. He's almost done with his Masters degree and all four of them are having a wonderful time.
It is a good life, I have to admit.
Its not perfect but hey... I'm just too dumb to realise I should be more satisfied with what I got. I guess its hard when you have the tendancy to dream and look at things and see how they can get bigger.
And I know they will.
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
Its only the 18th
And I'm already down to 1500 for the next two weeks. Damn it, lending money out really fucked me up. I'm too generous. I'm too nice. I'm too fucking helpful to everyone else that I fail to keep in mind I should take care of myself too. Same old problems. Same old me.
I guess there are some things that I never really learn.
I want love. I want acceptance. I want respect.
I want apologies from those bastards who have the gall to blame me for their insecurities.
I want forgiveness from those whom I have hurt and yet still hold on to grudges.
I want happiness. I want contentment. I want world peace. I want some people in pieces.
I want joy. I want excitement. I want sex. I want passion. I want chance and opportunity rolled into one ball of possibilities.
I want.
Why doesn't anyone get that?
Why does everyone else seem to think all I do is give?
And I'm already down to 1500 for the next two weeks. Damn it, lending money out really fucked me up. I'm too generous. I'm too nice. I'm too fucking helpful to everyone else that I fail to keep in mind I should take care of myself too. Same old problems. Same old me.
I guess there are some things that I never really learn.
I want love. I want acceptance. I want respect.
I want apologies from those bastards who have the gall to blame me for their insecurities.
I want forgiveness from those whom I have hurt and yet still hold on to grudges.
I want happiness. I want contentment. I want world peace. I want some people in pieces.
I want joy. I want excitement. I want sex. I want passion. I want chance and opportunity rolled into one ball of possibilities.
I want.
Why doesn't anyone get that?
Why does everyone else seem to think all I do is give?
Monday, May 17, 2004
Woke up early today
Feeling a tad unenthusiastic over the coming week. Though the sheer amount of workload doesn't really change anymore (meaning it is almost always fucking overly too much) it feels like there's even less now to really look forward to. One of those mornings that didn't quite start out right I guess. Sort of like waking up early enough to find you got some extra time enough for some snuggling and some good-morning-love-making only to realise you're actually still single. Not having a partner can really remove some of the splendor of a good early morning, that much I know.
Heard from the Awie
An old friend, Awie Roasa, called last night. He's all the way in Cebu, having transferred for a growing career (hell, he's earning much more than me!!! Managerial position na siya!) so in most ways I really am proud of him and of the courage he had to make the decisions he had to make. But the selfish barkadahan part of me still wishes he'd come back. It was fun hanging around and discussing everything from why girls can be money leeches, why women can be heart breakers and why frogs can fuck you bad and get you stuck on the road on a rainy night. He might be able to visit Manila come end of June or first week of July, so that's good.
Brown Out Blues
A quick brown out pissed me off last night. It happened while Seth, my house mate, was defraging his computer, and I was watching Paycheck. Must remember to buy a new batch of candles for such occasions. Thank God I wasn't playing Siren then, or any other Playstation 2 game for that matter or the memory card would be fried right now. Hmm.. de, buti hindi Siren or I'd be scared shit.
That game is creepy enough to make me jump at almost any noise I hear.
A Wet One?
Might have had a mini-wet dream today. Just noticed a small patch of.. well... you get the idea... on my shorts. Funny. I don't recall anything.
At least I'm sure it still works.
Feeling a tad unenthusiastic over the coming week. Though the sheer amount of workload doesn't really change anymore (meaning it is almost always fucking overly too much) it feels like there's even less now to really look forward to. One of those mornings that didn't quite start out right I guess. Sort of like waking up early enough to find you got some extra time enough for some snuggling and some good-morning-love-making only to realise you're actually still single. Not having a partner can really remove some of the splendor of a good early morning, that much I know.
Heard from the Awie
An old friend, Awie Roasa, called last night. He's all the way in Cebu, having transferred for a growing career (hell, he's earning much more than me!!! Managerial position na siya!) so in most ways I really am proud of him and of the courage he had to make the decisions he had to make. But the selfish barkadahan part of me still wishes he'd come back. It was fun hanging around and discussing everything from why girls can be money leeches, why women can be heart breakers and why frogs can fuck you bad and get you stuck on the road on a rainy night. He might be able to visit Manila come end of June or first week of July, so that's good.
Brown Out Blues
A quick brown out pissed me off last night. It happened while Seth, my house mate, was defraging his computer, and I was watching Paycheck. Must remember to buy a new batch of candles for such occasions. Thank God I wasn't playing Siren then, or any other Playstation 2 game for that matter or the memory card would be fried right now. Hmm.. de, buti hindi Siren or I'd be scared shit.
That game is creepy enough to make me jump at almost any noise I hear.
A Wet One?
Might have had a mini-wet dream today. Just noticed a small patch of.. well... you get the idea... on my shorts. Funny. I don't recall anything.
At least I'm sure it still works.
Friday, May 14, 2004
Thursday, May 13, 2004
Update for yesterday
Other than the fact I was at work so early...
and had a horrific number of little murphies with regards to the projects I was overseeing...
there were some good things.
1) Met Francis (Bocelli)
He was at ABS-CBN for a shoot and I was free enough for a quick hello and wassup!
Cool guy. Turns out he saw one of my (in)famous plays back at DLSU. Was a bit ashamed to find myself standing before someone who saw me gyrating and flirtatiously hopping around a bed in nothing but my boxer shorts. Then again, its part of being an actor, eh?
2) Got to eat some really yummy chocolate
Thanks to Jeff, our Manila Operations Head, I got some really good dark chocolate with coffee bits for my birthday. Considering my financial status (shouldn't have lent that 5000! Well, it was for a good cause) it was a blessing that was very much appreciated.
3) Freaked out by Siren
Its a freaky good game. Some people hate it cause its trial and error based. But that's what real survival horror should be like. It's either you do it, or you die. Not like Resident Evil's you-can-beat-the-crap-out-of-the-monsters anyway. Silent Hill still wins over Siren for sheer cool story and engaging plot. Siren, unfortunately, has a partly clunky system which interferes with the feel of the game.
Still, if you ever wanted to try a game that felt like you're a character in Ringu, try Siren!
Other than the fact I was at work so early...
and had a horrific number of little murphies with regards to the projects I was overseeing...
there were some good things.
1) Met Francis (Bocelli)
He was at ABS-CBN for a shoot and I was free enough for a quick hello and wassup!
Cool guy. Turns out he saw one of my (in)famous plays back at DLSU. Was a bit ashamed to find myself standing before someone who saw me gyrating and flirtatiously hopping around a bed in nothing but my boxer shorts. Then again, its part of being an actor, eh?
2) Got to eat some really yummy chocolate
Thanks to Jeff, our Manila Operations Head, I got some really good dark chocolate with coffee bits for my birthday. Considering my financial status (shouldn't have lent that 5000! Well, it was for a good cause) it was a blessing that was very much appreciated.
3) Freaked out by Siren
Its a freaky good game. Some people hate it cause its trial and error based. But that's what real survival horror should be like. It's either you do it, or you die. Not like Resident Evil's you-can-beat-the-crap-out-of-the-monsters anyway. Silent Hill still wins over Siren for sheer cool story and engaging plot. Siren, unfortunately, has a partly clunky system which interferes with the feel of the game.
Still, if you ever wanted to try a game that felt like you're a character in Ringu, try Siren!
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
Whew
I got five hundred measly bucks to stretch until the next pay day comes along. I wonder, will I make it? Work has been hectic. Juggling three projects while trying to hit my usual deadlines. Sometimes, I wonder if any of the higher management people actually notice my efforts.
Watched Chaos, a movie by Hideo Nakata (more known for his other movie Ringu, which was remade for American audiences as The Ring.) It was interesting. Sort of like a cross between Diabolique and another movie whose name I can't seem to recall right now.
On a lighter note, here's some Sadako for you! (Yes, are you starting to notice how much interest I have in LEGOs?)
Going to be playing Changeling this weekend. Its about time. Miss that game. Marco will finally be in the game, but sadly, this too is Aldwin's last game for a while. Agh... real life can really be cruel.
I got five hundred measly bucks to stretch until the next pay day comes along. I wonder, will I make it? Work has been hectic. Juggling three projects while trying to hit my usual deadlines. Sometimes, I wonder if any of the higher management people actually notice my efforts.
Watched Chaos, a movie by Hideo Nakata (more known for his other movie Ringu, which was remade for American audiences as The Ring.) It was interesting. Sort of like a cross between Diabolique and another movie whose name I can't seem to recall right now.
On a lighter note, here's some Sadako for you! (Yes, are you starting to notice how much interest I have in LEGOs?)
Going to be playing Changeling this weekend. Its about time. Miss that game. Marco will finally be in the game, but sadly, this too is Aldwin's last game for a while. Agh... real life can really be cruel.
Its Wednesday, not Tuesday!
It was a good morning. I woke up at 5:30a.m. feeling more energized than anything. In my head, a song was humming. For those who are familiar, the song was Tonari no TOTORO (My Neighbour Totoro), which is the intro song to the movie with the same name. The lyrics go like this:
To to ro Totoro To to ro Totoro
Dareka ga Kossori (someone secretly)
Komichi ni Ko no mi Uzumete (bury a berry in the side road and)
Chiisana me Haetara Himitsu no ango (when a small sprout grows, the secret code)
Mori e no pasupooto (is the passport to the forest)
Sutekina bouken hajimaru (a wonderful journey will begin)
It was a good morning. I woke up at 5:30a.m. feeling more energized than anything. In my head, a song was humming. For those who are familiar, the song was Tonari no TOTORO (My Neighbour Totoro), which is the intro song to the movie with the same name. The lyrics go like this:
To to ro Totoro To to ro Totoro
Dareka ga Kossori (someone secretly)
Komichi ni Ko no mi Uzumete (bury a berry in the side road and)
Chiisana me Haetara Himitsu no ango (when a small sprout grows, the secret code)
Mori e no pasupooto (is the passport to the forest)
Sutekina bouken hajimaru (a wonderful journey will begin)
Tonari no To to ro Totoro To to ro Totoro (my neighbor to to ro totoro to to ro totoro)
* Mori no naka ni Mukashi kara sunderu (living in the forest since the past)
Tonari no To to ro Totoro To to ro Totoro (my neighbor to to ro totoro to to ro totoro)
Kodomo no toki ni dake Anata ni otozureru (it visits you only when you are a kid)
Fushigina deai (a very mysterious meeting)
Ame furi Basu tei (raining at the bus stop)
Zubunure Obake ga itara (if there's a drenched ghost,)
Anata no Amagasa Sashite agemasho (let him under your umbrella)
Mori e no pasupooto (the passport to the forest,)
Mahou no tobira Akimasu (the magical door will open)
Tonari no To to ro Totoro To to ro Totoro (my neighbor to to ro totoro to to ro totoro)
Tsukiyo no ban ni Okarina fuiteru (it blows upon its ocarina on the night if the moon)
Tonari no To to ro Totoro To to ro Totoro (my neighbor to to ro totoro to to ro totoro)
Moshimo aeta nara Sutekina shiawase ga (if you ever meet him, a wonderful happiness wil)
Anata ni kuru wa (come to you)
repeat *
To to ro Totoro To to ro Totoro
To to ro Totoro To to ro Totoro...
On the sadder note, Aldwin has just informed me that he can no longer play on weekends. Work in a call center requires shifting schedules which can really fuck a person up timewise. Sigh. That's another player out of the count. Still, I'm not sure if I'll open a slot for other players to replace him. I'm worried of Aldwin finding some means to get his weekend back, then me struggling with the situation of having someone already taking his slot having to be told to leave the game. Wag na. Keep it simple. I'll just leave his seat open in case he returns.
Also, considering to run a game some weekend for the porn-clean Kervin, the body-makes-you-cry Jagard, and whoever else might be interested in trying roleplaying games. Oliver? Benedict? Carl? Heck, maybe even Vinnie or Dean, assuming they'd be game for such a romp as what I have in mind? I dunno yet really. I guess it depends if they have time and if they're interested. Part of me thinks though that a Kervs-Jagard game would be perfect to test run Models, my Austin Power means Too Wong Foo game with a touch of Charlie's Angels and Broken Hearts Club rolled into one.
That would be a sight.
Yawn.. this place is so empty at such an hour. I'll never get used to it.
Would've been nice to have someone to snuggle up with here.
Sigh.
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
Getting into deeper trouble without trying
Visited Nelz' blog today while at work.
hay... now I am in deeper trouble. Didn't realise it had a soft porn pic online.
Oh shiiieeet... Wag naman sana ako mapagalitan for this.
Diyoooooos kooooo, tama na...
In addition...
Handling a new production this week, as well as another shoot due next week. Trying to cope by having the schedules moved early morning instead of late at night. Its less pay (no Night Differential bonus) but at least I get to head home at six (theoretically. knowing my job, I'd be stuck here til seven or eight nontheless).
And as a finale...
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But knowing too well that ranting about it on my blog won't really change anything. From experience, I just know how ako pa ang magiging "mali" dito... I'm deleting all those portions above that are related to why I'm pissed and hurt right now.
At least typing them all down helped a bit.
And for those who feel bad about this... again, let me say this: Feeling bad about this is my right. It is mine to do. For you, its to either act on this, ignore it, or make sure it doesn't happen again.
I don't need guilt or pity.
I don't need sympathy.
I need empathy.
Visited Nelz' blog today while at work.
hay... now I am in deeper trouble. Didn't realise it had a soft porn pic online.
Oh shiiieeet... Wag naman sana ako mapagalitan for this.
Diyoooooos kooooo, tama na...
In addition...
Handling a new production this week, as well as another shoot due next week. Trying to cope by having the schedules moved early morning instead of late at night. Its less pay (no Night Differential bonus) but at least I get to head home at six (theoretically. knowing my job, I'd be stuck here til seven or eight nontheless).
And as a finale...
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[deleted deleted deleted deleted deleted deleted deleted deleted ] and its frustrating. So much that it hurts.
But knowing too well that ranting about it on my blog won't really change anything. From experience, I just know how ako pa ang magiging "mali" dito... I'm deleting all those portions above that are related to why I'm pissed and hurt right now.
At least typing them all down helped a bit.
And for those who feel bad about this... again, let me say this: Feeling bad about this is my right. It is mine to do. For you, its to either act on this, ignore it, or make sure it doesn't happen again.
I don't need guilt or pity.
I don't need sympathy.
I need empathy.
Monday, May 10, 2004
Blink.. blink...
Suddenly, Blogger itself looks new. Hmm.. I liked the old look more.
This new look with the tabs and the larger buttons feels... bulky and clunky. And I don't like the fact the preview button has to be a control+shift+p combination.
Anyway, just got back from voting today. It actually went well for me. Unlike others with hideous experiences more due to pathetic organization, mine was done pretty well with but one single gripe... many people who have finished voting were still standing nearby and their chatter was plain and simply annoying. Makes me wish I had a bigfuckinggun to blow their brains out.
Sigh.
So ends the long three day weekend (one of which I spent asleep for the better part of 12 hours) and tonight, its back to San Juan to clean the house, fix my stuff and get ready for the waiting tempest that is work.
Dreams
Had some interesting dreams within the last few days. Lemme try to write them down.
Dream 1:
I was standing at some function. There were lots of people and everyone was dressed like they were rich and famous. Thankfully, no sign of any Tessa-Prietos. Suddenly, from one corner, an ex-love of mine appears. She asks me how things are and I end up muttering things incoherently. Do you know how sometimes while dreaming you can think clearly as if you were awake? Well, here I was suddenly wondering, "Shit, do I still actually love you? I know I broke it off, but suddenly I'm wondering if the way you loved me was so much better than the way things are today."
She notices me falling silent and, in hopes of breaking the silence, mentions that her current partner (let's call him Al) isn't here right now. "He's busy with work. He still hates your guts though, did you know that?" I simply shrugged and told her its all in the past as far as I was concerned. "I'm not the one whose holding on to grudges. I'm the one seeking to move on and make amends."
"Do you still love me?" She suddenly popped the question and looked into my eyes. I felt my breath catch. I felt her hands sliding to my side. "Do you think of me?"
It was then that it happened. I opened my mouth, planning to tell her to stop. And instead of her name, what spiralled out of my mouth was the name of the person I had fallen in love with most recently. She stared at me and muttered, "I guess that just shows who you really love..."
And I just nodded. Kissed her cheek. And walked back home to the waking lands.
I woke up nearly in tears. I felt bad for hurting her again, although I know it was just a dream. But you know, back when we were together, dreams were very important. There were those occasions we shared elements in dreams almost as if our dreams were linked. And there were many times dreams helped us understand why certain things were happening. I guess in some ways, this was closure.
Dream 2:
I was talking to relatives. Without warning, I break into song and they start singing along. I head up the steps of an old spanish house to find what would best be described as a masoleum above. Inside, a ghost rises and dances with me as I tell myself "This is perfect for a comic... The twists are just great..."
Then I wake up. I recall only what I typed above, and I have a painfully clear understanding that what I wrote above is barely 5% of what really was incredibly moving in the dream I had. I wish I recalled the dream clearly.
Dream 3:
I was on an airplane. I understood that I was leaving for the United States. A flight attendant came over and handed me a hand-written letter she was told to give me. I open it and read: "Yes, we shared love. But now, I love him more than you. We're just more alike. Don't worry.. I won't let our friendship die. Don't be bothered by the rumors you might hear, okay? I don't care what they think of me."
I blinked a few times and crumbled the letter to a ball. I threw it out the window, and it passed through the glass and flew away. I looked back at the other people and they were all chuckling, but trying not to look like they were. Insulted, I stood up and yelled something I don't recall. Then, I walked back to my seat and told my seatmate (who didn't exist earlier) "Fuck... doesn't anyone realise I'm worried about my own feelings too?" The black woman beside me laughed then handed me a comic book.
I looked at the title and all I can recall is that it had my name printed on the cover.
And the dollar value printed was $15.95
Freaky thing, later that same night... I heard from a friend who muttered something very close to the contents of the letter. Talk about strange.
Suddenly, Blogger itself looks new. Hmm.. I liked the old look more.
This new look with the tabs and the larger buttons feels... bulky and clunky. And I don't like the fact the preview button has to be a control+shift+p combination.
Anyway, just got back from voting today. It actually went well for me. Unlike others with hideous experiences more due to pathetic organization, mine was done pretty well with but one single gripe... many people who have finished voting were still standing nearby and their chatter was plain and simply annoying. Makes me wish I had a bigfuckinggun to blow their brains out.
Sigh.
So ends the long three day weekend (one of which I spent asleep for the better part of 12 hours) and tonight, its back to San Juan to clean the house, fix my stuff and get ready for the waiting tempest that is work.
Dreams
Had some interesting dreams within the last few days. Lemme try to write them down.
Dream 1:
I was standing at some function. There were lots of people and everyone was dressed like they were rich and famous. Thankfully, no sign of any Tessa-Prietos. Suddenly, from one corner, an ex-love of mine appears. She asks me how things are and I end up muttering things incoherently. Do you know how sometimes while dreaming you can think clearly as if you were awake? Well, here I was suddenly wondering, "Shit, do I still actually love you? I know I broke it off, but suddenly I'm wondering if the way you loved me was so much better than the way things are today."
She notices me falling silent and, in hopes of breaking the silence, mentions that her current partner (let's call him Al) isn't here right now. "He's busy with work. He still hates your guts though, did you know that?" I simply shrugged and told her its all in the past as far as I was concerned. "I'm not the one whose holding on to grudges. I'm the one seeking to move on and make amends."
"Do you still love me?" She suddenly popped the question and looked into my eyes. I felt my breath catch. I felt her hands sliding to my side. "Do you think of me?"
It was then that it happened. I opened my mouth, planning to tell her to stop. And instead of her name, what spiralled out of my mouth was the name of the person I had fallen in love with most recently. She stared at me and muttered, "I guess that just shows who you really love..."
And I just nodded. Kissed her cheek. And walked back home to the waking lands.
I woke up nearly in tears. I felt bad for hurting her again, although I know it was just a dream. But you know, back when we were together, dreams were very important. There were those occasions we shared elements in dreams almost as if our dreams were linked. And there were many times dreams helped us understand why certain things were happening. I guess in some ways, this was closure.
Dream 2:
I was talking to relatives. Without warning, I break into song and they start singing along. I head up the steps of an old spanish house to find what would best be described as a masoleum above. Inside, a ghost rises and dances with me as I tell myself "This is perfect for a comic... The twists are just great..."
Then I wake up. I recall only what I typed above, and I have a painfully clear understanding that what I wrote above is barely 5% of what really was incredibly moving in the dream I had. I wish I recalled the dream clearly.
Dream 3:
I was on an airplane. I understood that I was leaving for the United States. A flight attendant came over and handed me a hand-written letter she was told to give me. I open it and read: "Yes, we shared love. But now, I love him more than you. We're just more alike. Don't worry.. I won't let our friendship die. Don't be bothered by the rumors you might hear, okay? I don't care what they think of me."
I blinked a few times and crumbled the letter to a ball. I threw it out the window, and it passed through the glass and flew away. I looked back at the other people and they were all chuckling, but trying not to look like they were. Insulted, I stood up and yelled something I don't recall. Then, I walked back to my seat and told my seatmate (who didn't exist earlier) "Fuck... doesn't anyone realise I'm worried about my own feelings too?" The black woman beside me laughed then handed me a comic book.
I looked at the title and all I can recall is that it had my name printed on the cover.
And the dollar value printed was $15.95
Freaky thing, later that same night... I heard from a friend who muttered something very close to the contents of the letter. Talk about strange.
UNbelievable.. but true!
Taken from Gamespot.com
Catwoman First Look
On July 23, Warner Bros. will release Catwoman, an action flick based on the popular DC Comics character. On the same day, Electronic Arts will roll out a game based on the movie for all three consoles and the PC. We recently got to take a look at an in-development version of the game and were surprised--really--at how well the game is turning out. Why were we surprised? Well, movie-licensed action games don't exactly have the best reputations, but Catwoman is genuinely looking quite cool, because it draws inspiration from recent games like Prince of Persia and brings some pretty unique combat mechanics to the table.
Catwoman, the game, will follow the storyline of Catwoman, the movie, almost entirely. The game's 23 levels will cover (and expand upon) every major location from the film. Catwoman has two basic methods of attack. She has a whip that she can use to snare enemies, knock radios or guns out of foes' hands, and even grab and fling objects in the environment. You can also hold down a shoulder button to make Catwoman crouch in a catlike pose, and in this position, she'll attack with a bevy of capoeira moves. (Capoeira is a Brazilian dancelike fighting style. Think Eddy Gordo from Tekken 3.) The combat controls are pretty unique in that you attack with the right analog stick rather than with buttons. This gives you the benefit of being able to attack in a full 360 degrees, which gives the combat a fluid feeling.
Catwoman will have a lot of other powers besides her considerable fighting prowess. Chief among these powers is her "cat sense," which gives her cues about things in the environment that can be interacted with. Objects that can be grabbed with the whip, switches that can be pressed, and more will be surrounded by a soft glow to help you out. Furthermore, if you switch to first-person perspective to look at an important item (such as a switch), your view will zoom right up close so that you know exactly what you need to do with the item. Like any good cat, you'll also be able to see in the dark if you manage to turn the lights off, which will give you a big leg up on enemies.
By racking up points with fancy attack combos, you'll also accumulate points that you can cash in to purchase new abilities for Catwoman. For instance, one safe landing ability will let you fall from great heights without taking damage (just like a cat landing on its feet, natch). Another buyable ability is the wild cat mode, which Catwoman can enter after powering up a special meter. Wild cat mode was described to us as being similar to bullet time in Max Payne in that you'll be able to move much faster than your enemies to deliver more-powerful attacks.
The developers want their Catwoman to "unseat Lara Croft" as the sexiest video game character ever, and from what we saw, she just might do it. The Catwoman model is extremely well modeled and animated--not to mention that she looks and moves an awful lot like Halle Berry. Amusingly, if you let the controls idle for a set amount of time, Catwoman won't simply go into an idle animation. Instead, the game will cut to what the developers have unofficially dubbed the "ogle cam," which cinematically shows off Catwoman's model and moves. The game's levels have a gritty urban look that's enhanced by impressive effects, like specular mapping and light blooming. In the sound department, Halle Berry has voiced all the dialogue for her character in the game, which will certainly add a little extra oomph for fans.
Catwoman looks like it's shaping up to be quite a solid action game, which ought to help bust the stereotype that all movie-licensed games are, well, crap. Given all the ways you can enhance Catwoman's powers throughout the game, as well as the fact that you can replay all previous levels to both search for hidden items and unlock bonus content from the movie, Catwoman ought to offer a whole lot of replay value for action fans. Look for more on the game in the coming weeks.
Why do I have a feeling the game is actually better than the movie itself?
Taken from Gamespot.com
Catwoman First Look
On July 23, Warner Bros. will release Catwoman, an action flick based on the popular DC Comics character. On the same day, Electronic Arts will roll out a game based on the movie for all three consoles and the PC. We recently got to take a look at an in-development version of the game and were surprised--really--at how well the game is turning out. Why were we surprised? Well, movie-licensed action games don't exactly have the best reputations, but Catwoman is genuinely looking quite cool, because it draws inspiration from recent games like Prince of Persia and brings some pretty unique combat mechanics to the table.
Catwoman, the game, will follow the storyline of Catwoman, the movie, almost entirely. The game's 23 levels will cover (and expand upon) every major location from the film. Catwoman has two basic methods of attack. She has a whip that she can use to snare enemies, knock radios or guns out of foes' hands, and even grab and fling objects in the environment. You can also hold down a shoulder button to make Catwoman crouch in a catlike pose, and in this position, she'll attack with a bevy of capoeira moves. (Capoeira is a Brazilian dancelike fighting style. Think Eddy Gordo from Tekken 3.) The combat controls are pretty unique in that you attack with the right analog stick rather than with buttons. This gives you the benefit of being able to attack in a full 360 degrees, which gives the combat a fluid feeling.
Catwoman will have a lot of other powers besides her considerable fighting prowess. Chief among these powers is her "cat sense," which gives her cues about things in the environment that can be interacted with. Objects that can be grabbed with the whip, switches that can be pressed, and more will be surrounded by a soft glow to help you out. Furthermore, if you switch to first-person perspective to look at an important item (such as a switch), your view will zoom right up close so that you know exactly what you need to do with the item. Like any good cat, you'll also be able to see in the dark if you manage to turn the lights off, which will give you a big leg up on enemies.
By racking up points with fancy attack combos, you'll also accumulate points that you can cash in to purchase new abilities for Catwoman. For instance, one safe landing ability will let you fall from great heights without taking damage (just like a cat landing on its feet, natch). Another buyable ability is the wild cat mode, which Catwoman can enter after powering up a special meter. Wild cat mode was described to us as being similar to bullet time in Max Payne in that you'll be able to move much faster than your enemies to deliver more-powerful attacks.
The developers want their Catwoman to "unseat Lara Croft" as the sexiest video game character ever, and from what we saw, she just might do it. The Catwoman model is extremely well modeled and animated--not to mention that she looks and moves an awful lot like Halle Berry. Amusingly, if you let the controls idle for a set amount of time, Catwoman won't simply go into an idle animation. Instead, the game will cut to what the developers have unofficially dubbed the "ogle cam," which cinematically shows off Catwoman's model and moves. The game's levels have a gritty urban look that's enhanced by impressive effects, like specular mapping and light blooming. In the sound department, Halle Berry has voiced all the dialogue for her character in the game, which will certainly add a little extra oomph for fans.
Catwoman looks like it's shaping up to be quite a solid action game, which ought to help bust the stereotype that all movie-licensed games are, well, crap. Given all the ways you can enhance Catwoman's powers throughout the game, as well as the fact that you can replay all previous levels to both search for hidden items and unlock bonus content from the movie, Catwoman ought to offer a whole lot of replay value for action fans. Look for more on the game in the coming weeks.
Why do I have a feeling the game is actually better than the movie itself?
Ah.. Long weekend
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all you Moms out there!
Haay... grabe... I should have more weekends like this!
Also, finally got a copy of siRen and Onimuisha 3. As well as DVDs of IRREVERSIBLE, CHAOS (by the director of Ringu) and a free copy of Paycheck.
I'm happy.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all you Moms out there!
Haay... grabe... I should have more weekends like this!
Also, finally got a copy of siRen and Onimuisha 3. As well as DVDs of IRREVERSIBLE, CHAOS (by the director of Ringu) and a free copy of Paycheck.
I'm happy.
Saturday, May 08, 2004
Friday update
Finally got a copy of Orpheus' Orphan-Grinders, the second-to-the-last book of the story. Let me admit this, it has been a while since a role-playing game book actually got me scared. Last night, found myself peeking out of the sheets to check for monsters in the shadows. My congratulations to the creative team of the book!
Ah... here's hoping this weekend ain't filled with bloodshed.
Finally got a copy of Orpheus' Orphan-Grinders, the second-to-the-last book of the story. Let me admit this, it has been a while since a role-playing game book actually got me scared. Last night, found myself peeking out of the sheets to check for monsters in the shadows. My congratulations to the creative team of the book!
Ah... here's hoping this weekend ain't filled with bloodshed.
Friday, May 07, 2004
Just saw Hellboy
I liked the mushy-ness added to it.
And I really liked Abe Sapien.
But damn... what the heck happened to the script?
And what was up with Rasputin? From all those cool tricks (shadow walking and doing the batman "disappearances") when he was finally there, he did nothing! Heck, even the "steal the soul" thing was kinda hokey. Can't you just torture Hellboy till he agrees? Or kill the gal the normal way by slitting her throat or something.
And that raising the corpse thing in Russia... that was totally out-of-nowhere. No foreshadowing. No hint he can do that. Nothing. Argh... Where were Hellboy's talismans? He always had a lot of them to do the fighting with the occult. Argh..
I guess I wasn't too happy with the film.
The effects were amazing... but damn it... I hoped it was better.
And I'm not even that much a fan of the comic.
I liked the mushy-ness added to it.
And I really liked Abe Sapien.
But damn... what the heck happened to the script?
And what was up with Rasputin? From all those cool tricks (shadow walking and doing the batman "disappearances") when he was finally there, he did nothing! Heck, even the "steal the soul" thing was kinda hokey. Can't you just torture Hellboy till he agrees? Or kill the gal the normal way by slitting her throat or something.
And that raising the corpse thing in Russia... that was totally out-of-nowhere. No foreshadowing. No hint he can do that. Nothing. Argh... Where were Hellboy's talismans? He always had a lot of them to do the fighting with the occult. Argh..
I guess I wasn't too happy with the film.
The effects were amazing... but damn it... I hoped it was better.
And I'm not even that much a fan of the comic.
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
I fucked up
Or at least that's how I feel like right now.
At work, ust realised that we used the wrong fucking phone card in the telecom advertisement we shot last week. TWO FUCKING COMMERCIALS SHOT WITH THE WRONG PHONE CARD IN DISPLAY. Putcha... I feel this will be crashing down on me and that most will consider it my fault being the Art Director. The thing is, I believe I wasn't the only one who messed up. Everyone else in the team saw the card and didn't realise the thing was the wrong one. Damn damn damn...
I wonder if I'll lose my job.
I wonder if they'll blame me.
I wonder if this is really my fault and not someone else's.
I feel bad for the director too. Erin has been doing a very good job in working on the project. I feel like this is a failure of us to support him in the project. I feel like this is a moment we failed to tell him, "We're behind you in making this work out."
Damn. Argh...
God.... why am I so fucking incapable.
Or at least that's how I feel like right now.
At work, ust realised that we used the wrong fucking phone card in the telecom advertisement we shot last week. TWO FUCKING COMMERCIALS SHOT WITH THE WRONG PHONE CARD IN DISPLAY. Putcha... I feel this will be crashing down on me and that most will consider it my fault being the Art Director. The thing is, I believe I wasn't the only one who messed up. Everyone else in the team saw the card and didn't realise the thing was the wrong one. Damn damn damn...
I wonder if I'll lose my job.
I wonder if they'll blame me.
I wonder if this is really my fault and not someone else's.
I feel bad for the director too. Erin has been doing a very good job in working on the project. I feel like this is a failure of us to support him in the project. I feel like this is a moment we failed to tell him, "We're behind you in making this work out."
Damn. Argh...
God.... why am I so fucking incapable.
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
The Calm Tuesday before the Storm
It was a quieter day today.
While yesterday had all the fun and hijinks of a great party! ( Special thanks to everyone who was able to make it. Just wish more were able to show up for it. ) As always, Carl and I had a little show for all those who stayed till the end. With our usual renditions of songs Can't Get Enough of Your Love, Babe, Loving You and I Dreamed A Dream, we belted out our frustrations, anger and irritations of being in a world with just too many people who earn more than they deserve.
Adding to the fun was Sam whom my officemates had met quite a while back. My boss was kind of surprised to realise this young guy could sing boy band songs with a respectable level of dignity. Siyempre, medyo na hiya siya at first, but eventually, he took the "stage" with a smile.
Anyway, that was last night.
Today was a quiet day. Long waiting. Huge gaps between projects and meetings. And even enough time to nod off for a while and fall asleep. But when one considers I have another shoot coming up (this time with a big star who is actually consuming more than half our total budget and yet is giving us only from 3:00p.m. to 11:00p.m. to finish the shoot) one can just imagine what will happen next. Add to that the upcoming needed revisions to the project I was producing a few weeks back... mukhang magkakaroon na naman ng mga araw na walang tulugan for little ole me.
Hay...
Wala na ngang love life...
Sobra pa sa trabaho.
What else can I look forward to?
It was a quieter day today.
While yesterday had all the fun and hijinks of a great party! ( Special thanks to everyone who was able to make it. Just wish more were able to show up for it. ) As always, Carl and I had a little show for all those who stayed till the end. With our usual renditions of songs Can't Get Enough of Your Love, Babe, Loving You and I Dreamed A Dream, we belted out our frustrations, anger and irritations of being in a world with just too many people who earn more than they deserve.
Adding to the fun was Sam whom my officemates had met quite a while back. My boss was kind of surprised to realise this young guy could sing boy band songs with a respectable level of dignity. Siyempre, medyo na hiya siya at first, but eventually, he took the "stage" with a smile.
Anyway, that was last night.
Today was a quiet day. Long waiting. Huge gaps between projects and meetings. And even enough time to nod off for a while and fall asleep. But when one considers I have another shoot coming up (this time with a big star who is actually consuming more than half our total budget and yet is giving us only from 3:00p.m. to 11:00p.m. to finish the shoot) one can just imagine what will happen next. Add to that the upcoming needed revisions to the project I was producing a few weeks back... mukhang magkakaroon na naman ng mga araw na walang tulugan for little ole me.
Hay...
Wala na ngang love life...
Sobra pa sa trabaho.
What else can I look forward to?
Monday, May 03, 2004
Monday Musical
Going out singing with a bunch of officemates, some friends and the big bosing here at work tonight. Here's hoping for a wonderful night of kantahan, kantsawan and kainan. Been a while since I got to sing with Carl, Sam and sila Joey so this should be a cool event. Can't wait for a chance to sing our staple songs: Loving you, Love Will Keep Us Together, and Can't Get Enough of Your Love, babe. Ahh... can't wait can't wait can't wait....
Hehehehhe
Going out singing with a bunch of officemates, some friends and the big bosing here at work tonight. Here's hoping for a wonderful night of kantahan, kantsawan and kainan. Been a while since I got to sing with Carl, Sam and sila Joey so this should be a cool event. Can't wait for a chance to sing our staple songs: Loving you, Love Will Keep Us Together, and Can't Get Enough of Your Love, babe. Ahh... can't wait can't wait can't wait....
Hehehehhe
Sunday, May 02, 2004
Funky fun music
I'm sure you've heard of Maroon 5.
Late bloomer me, so sue me, I think I'm starting to like their tunes.
Well, will wait and see.
Its back to work unfortunately.
And even worse, I got ten pages for SIGLO that have yet to be done. I actually made around twenty total, but none have met my expectations so far.. so here's to hoping I get them done and hit the approvals of Grand Master Lord Amongst Deities Dean and Most Enlightened Victim of Self-Pleasure Amongst Alien Entities Vinnie.
I'm sure you've heard of Maroon 5.
Late bloomer me, so sue me, I think I'm starting to like their tunes.
Well, will wait and see.
Its back to work unfortunately.
And even worse, I got ten pages for SIGLO that have yet to be done. I actually made around twenty total, but none have met my expectations so far.. so here's to hoping I get them done and hit the approvals of Grand Master Lord Amongst Deities Dean and Most Enlightened Victim of Self-Pleasure Amongst Alien Entities Vinnie.
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